Monday, April 28, 2008 @Monday, April 28, 2008
I had a terrible day.
e heat outside today was almost unbearable
I felt heat rush to my head like a shot tat blasted lethal
E fight was vicious
I striked
But i never got far
Grandma was holdin me back
So she won
She always do
No reasons no rhyme
tat she could hav her way
when she never ever thought for others
It was clearly she was wrong
But she got her way still
She was just a fucked up creature
All e while tat ive suffered
Why am i always e one to give way
I dont understand e old folks
They let me down
I will go crazy some day
I hate to go home
I dont even get proper rest
A sister she is?
I look with so much hatred my heart is breakin
Why do ppl always take me for granted
I wish i can move
Go home everyday
To a place i reli call home
A place where theres warmth
I will be gone.
What they did.
One fine day people will realise.I held on in silence, i am at the edge nearing to leap
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, April 21, 2008 @Monday, April 21, 2008
I wasnt feelin too happy
I took mc today
K not tat i was not feelin ok physically
Ive been havin bad insomnia
and ive a bloody stiff neck now
tat i cant turn left
It gives me a headache
But doc wasnt willing to gif me sleepin pills
Hes afraid ill commit suicide i tink heh
Wats e point when with tis rate
it deteriotes my health day by day
Its slow suicide.
I cant even imagine how sick i will be like 20 yrs down e road
or i tink 10 im already affected
Sigh....
who will take care of me den
:(
Was lookin at melbourne
v lax
Mayb i should reli tink about migrating there....
shrugs.
/////If only i could buy time........///////
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 @Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Tonight is my 3rd midnite
hang in dere
Last nite was reli bad coz nite b4 tat
came back n didn manage to sleep much
On top of e usual flts
there were many delayed to my shift
Damned
So by 530am after back from kmile flt
I was so giddy i almost puked
shrugs.
Its all my home bed's fault
I tink theres sth wrong
Coz at home i always cant get to slp
When i sleep somewhere else, i always sleep betta
I need someone to adopt me heh
Sigh.
Oh wells at least tom morn end work ill be off.
////I need to let out and de stress////
////Make me feel betta////
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, April 15, 2008 @Tuesday, April 15, 2008
6 midnight shifts ahead
Lucky still hav a 'fake' offday in btw on fri
Sigh
*I pray ill get thru tis
I need much more to feel better Its rainin' so heavy
I wished i could sleep in more
I need another holiday!
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, April 12, 2008 @Saturday, April 12, 2008
Have i mentioned i like supermart-ing? heh
We spent almost 2 hrs ok!! lol
And a trolleyfull of things
Hey i didn put back things along da way ok :p
But it didn go over our set cost..amazingly! hee
Actually it was to burn tm
Our movie was in 2 hrs tm
But we enjoyed.... tats all dat matters
Caught "Definitely Maybe"
Its a pretty nice show....
Ah...tom off
but im feelin sick
shit man..how can i be ill durin my LIMITED off days?
V sad.
Lucky mon also off
I tink im too heaty
Yet im still eatin all e extra spicy n heaty food
Oh gosh i need to "jiang huo" lol
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, April 08, 2008 @Tuesday, April 08, 2008
Tell me wat is tis world
Tell me who am i
Tell me wat goes around in tis universe
Tell me wat brings e sun n breeze out every day
Tell me where does e river flows to
Tell me wat a cut feels
Tell me why a heart pumps but not alive anymore
Tell me why i cant breathe
Tell me why those words tear me apart
Tell me a reason why
All of it just brought me to tis day
My heart breaks
It breaks,
so much.
God.
How could u have flipped sides
When one tries so hard
How could u have slip us
Not a word say i
each feel sinks n bleeds n runs thru these veins of mine
If tis is all
and reli as tats been said
just tat,
Doer it.
Tis is a song of pain
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, April 06, 2008 @Sunday, April 06, 2008
Sorry
I am lousy i guess
I wish i could be so much more
I'll try harder
I feel terrible too
I gazed into da vast sky
Da stars stroded all over da sky
Tot a star navigates direction
But i got lost
In dat massive sky
Da rain poured down on me
I got lost, i fell, n tears fell from these eyes of mine
E darkness swallowed almost everything in me
As it slowly took all of e strength left in me
The pain grasps the insides of me
This is where i will go now
When i have crossed e end of e hurdle
Everything will be ok , isnt it.
I am tired,
I only wan to be close
to u
I am sorry
I am here.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Friday, April 04, 2008 @Friday, April 04, 2008
Its a bad nite
I feel lousy..
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
