Days had been i-wished-i-could-end.
Sorry little jayne,
sorry dad,
For the long face i pulled throughout
For the scoldings when u weren in d wrong

Been fucked up
4 day old phone's spoilt
Parents screwed me
N everythin n everythin's fucked up

But i guess....afta so much...
when u reach the bottom, u cant get any more lower.
And dese days...anything goes.

But am glad at least some's cleared now
I jus dun wan things to be left bad.

So now shall tk the least mood left in me to blog bout past few days...

Firstly, congrats to all who did well in d os.
:)

Fri-Lins Birthday Bash
It was a fuckin gd one!
Except the fact dat i had to be constantly hiding under d huge umbrella or d hole in d steps!
Saw good old friends!
Jiaying, ale n rest....
:)
Drinks was GOOD!
coz it was lk so much so much la...
Can after can, bott afta bott heh.
Ya correct kel!
We were supp to hav hrt-2-hrt tok dat nite..
tok abit...den everyone happily come join us..
hot stuff la we! ahaha
Another day we go kel-jay-jov date!
jus 3 of us! haha!
N when dat song played on...
gosh...true...rite kel? haha

Afta dat we "bo ta bo lam pa".
ha
Jus kept drinkin n drinkin...
Den came card games
N..some "shows"...buahahaha
We got reprimanded by d guards no matter where we wen...heh
Some pple were gone...heh
i was still sober dat nite...afta so much drinks!
but i puked when i drank vodka
its jus vodka.
My body cant take any vodka afta d otha tm.
N shawn n i dunno who muz jus be so mean...
Dey bluff me no vodka
i drank...den ran to puke
came back needed sth to drink..pure soft drink...
dey gav me a cup say wo vodka
i drank...i puked again...
dey did dat for 3 times
jus so mean lor!
:(
Kel was the nice soul ard...
*hugs buddy

Afta dat was Big splash time
Lin's parents jus so gung-ho lor!
dey were d first to get it goin...
den one by one everyone had to be in!
K except gen n han.
So u see so many drunkards waddlin in d pool
wonder how we managed to swim despite all d alcohol in our blood!!
Errs...n u can see more unit's lights came on...
All d neighbours got awoken by us!
Den came d fuckin guards again...
we all got rammed.
Told to cut it out
But guess wot!
We had our last jump in!
ha!

Ok...but my fone was a goner.
OK sighs dun tok bout it
jus fuck la.

It was dryin up at lin's place.
So fuckin cold la...
Lin's dad...our "victor kor kor" lol...he simply took out more bottles of drinks!! haha
So ke ai la him!
Den he named kel jay n me all d marine creatures la!
Kel was lobster Jay was oyster n me seahum!
lol...the marine family la!
Me n kel were damn red u c...n jay was reli pale! haha

Pretty much of stoning...
Ok im alwiz at dat.
Esp so for what happened earlier dat day.
sighs.
But i got it all done.

Home at 4am!
N will be gunned down by leona n sann if we dun go sento tom wif dem!!!
ha n so slept at 5 woke up at 8.
Man ure askin 2 drunkards to go suntannin??
heh
N!!!! d drunkards were earlier den d rest can!
how can!
We were lk staggerin our way dere la..
cldn walk str8 lines heh.
Ok...loo was d earliest!
We trained dwn to seah im food centre.
Den bused in to sento.
Everything seemed intact still...
Its killing me.
I knew it wld...to go back...
But i wanted to.
To be done.

Sun came in n out.
peeps lk sann n jay were reli cheery.
Jus made day betta.
Had a gd swim.
Lost my nicey choker tho. :(
Bung tok in d sea. heh.
Dun tink got much tan...
towned afta dat
Me n oli were totally worn out we slept rite thru d journey...
while jay n sann entertained demselves wif our cam! haha
Supp to watch honey but didn.
had dinner in cine.
Den pool.
Reli shagged.
N...
Was in a pretty bad shape, mood if u may say.
:(
Anything...jus come if it may...anything goes...alr used to....

//// I am losing myself........

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

i can't sleep..........


Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down

Feels like I'm walking in the rain
I find myself trying to wash away the pain
'Cause I need you to give me some shelter
'Cause I'm fading away
And baby, I'm walking in the rain

I said baby, I'm walking in the rain


Once i leap past tis gate,
It'll be done n over.


Ive been awake n on d com so long...
but my alarm still hasn rang ha!

Btw...
Gd luck for d O-ers
fiona, jay, kel, huis, va, manya, ta, loo, maine, cheryl
who else...i cant rem!

Party Bash tonite...
errrs...below my hse?
I muz hide alr la....
Ltr granny come dwn pull me by my collar...ha!
U pple betta not fag so much!
As for drinks....can! haha
My poolside's all lighted up alr! haha
So xmas-y!

But b4 poolside party,
im gonna go out!


///// Inject me. To numb. D need to not feel.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

////// Words cannot describe the way im feeling
She didnt say the words i longed to hear
Dose she said
Made me crumble so bad.
I feel the pain
Coz im without her
Now dat shes gone
Im sleeping with the lights on..............

>>>>How can it be dat it is so sunny ova ur side
When im dying here
With every second dat kills<<<<

+Take me over n make me strong+

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Been thinking so much my head is about to blow...

So tell me.

Gotta get thru tis
//// I'm walking away from the troubles of my life
//// I'm walking away to find a betta day

Do u go for what ure expected to
Or do u go for what u feel?

But is dat possible...
when its gone away from u.

Or maybe,I need to gaze away in another direction...

/// Hide it all up inside....

/// The smile dat was once dere...now has faded away...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

She cut herself on a piece of paper

It didn't hurt but she saw the blood

She could need that embrace

you weren't there



Did he have to cry louder

Would that make you hear him

You see his heart was broken for the first time



You weren't there

distant far away

It's like this every day

They see you in their heads

Wonder if you'll come

Afraid to close their eyes

And miss you once again


Dat u will be here

A wish yet to come true

They're making up these stories about you



You weren't there

distant far away

It's like this every day

They see you in their heads

Wonder if you'll come

Afraid to close their eyes

And miss you once again

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

How happy....
Den ill turn n go.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Yday had been a long hard nite.
Today everything black n white.
All seems not rite
I need a hand

Now roaming through this darkness I'm alive but I'm alone.
Part of me is fighting this but part of me is gone.

Incomplete
It's been a Year-Winter, Summer, Spring and Fall
But being without you
just ain’t livin' at all
If I could travel back in time,
I'd relive the days you were mine

And even though it seems i have everything
i dont wanna be a lonely fool
i can make believe i have everything.
but i can't pretend that i dont see
that without you girl my life is incomplete.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Woah maine translate one whole chinese song!
haha
Post it up on ur blog maine!
Wah lau wat a sad song la

Woke up jus in tm for ac funfair
Quite terrible
But got to see old friends.

Hear huis n maine out too...! heh

Town tog
Ended up in sake sushi

Hope u cheer up................

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Catching up time with ah gong!
Oli came ltr
cant believe we stayed outside all d way till 2
Jus tokin n chilling...

Den we headed dwn pasir ris
Jus oli n me...so romantic rite lk wat she say buahahha
no la..wen dwn meet a whole big grp
So we took Nr7
We were saying we alight at somewhere nearer pr to tk cab
But we happily fell aslp in da bus
N when we suddenly woke up
we were d onli 2 left in da bus le hee
N we didn noe where we were
Eh in pasir ris alr lor
D journey was lk more den n hr la!
Took cab in

Met d rest
Lets see whos dere...
Sarah n Nic, Leona, Tiffy, Yip, San n Jill
We sat by fisherman village
till dere was a blackout lol

Actually onli san n sarah were entertaining...
d rest were lk gone alr here n dere

Its reli nice to chill by the beach...
N most of us sneaked out of our hses... hee so cartoon

San reli made us luff man
leona oso!
Dey r so funnY!

Colin put our plane again!
She didn come dwn lk she told us!
Hmph!

All of us squeezed into one car!!!
Some of dem had brkfast...
Den cabbed hm

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Didn go for lessons again tis morn
Noon lessons was hella shit
Totally screwed my proj so i crushed all n threw into bin
dere goes 40 percent of whole subj
I am gonna fail
FUCK it

N all my medals on my exhibition is gone!
My marathon n crosss country ones... Even my huge trophy
8 altogether?
FUCK IT LA

Wat a day
N im so fucking tired n drained out
tot it wld be made betta
but forget it la

Fuck off.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Jay so loves me la!
I see jovin i love u so many tms across her blog!
wahaha.
*big smile
I love u too dude!
But rachel is so gonna smack u again! buahaha

Hmmm...first tm ah...
haha poor ger, deres alwiz a first tm 4 everything silly!
N dun even tink of how long it'll tk my dear
when u finalli get it ull see dat all d tm was worthed it
Even if u do not,
rem at least u tried
ged me, tis old man's advice?
lol
P.s : den we can sing our fav song again! haha

Talking bout facing life each morning...
Dere r times to be serious,
Dere r times to chill.
But even if u tk life serious,
pple do not tk u serious.
So tk life as a breeze ya
Mayb the thinking of a 19 yr old.
Mayb somewhat different
Mayb the path dat ive trodded makes me d way i am.
Enuff of life,
yew.

On today,
released afta one hr
But..cldn go wandering off..
bcoz i had the vsc proj to be put up
N hence d buryin-into-work nonstop 4 hrs.
N i mean non-stop.
Lucky to the delight of a plate of well whipped up friedrice.
N when i looked up, 4 hrs has gone.
Work was obvious dat it was last min work.
N toopid me...while slicing d mountin board wif d huge penknife..
I sliced thru my fingernail.
N it broke.
Poor nail of mine....
One proj down,
yet many more to go.
:(
Lookin 4ward to nex week....1 week hol...need it badly.
Ok...but i muz mk myself go tk at least 3 rolls..
so i won be so tight when sch starts.
even best finish all 10 haha.

Oh i treated myself to an ice-cream afta sch. heh.
Dese days its hard to find someone who appreciate ice-cream with...


/// I need a haircut
/// I need air
/// I need to be out
/// I need to work hard
/// I need to play hard
/// I need to do shopping
/// I need to rob the bank to get new clothes

/// I need friday to come quick.... :)

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

My mum is a clean freak
I am a design student
We are constantly at war.

I am suffocating
When deadlines choke to my neck
N the world chokes my throat
/// I am a gasoline dampened piece of old cloth set ablazed

Iamtuggingwitheveryonebutiampissedatmyself.

Ihatemyself.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Replaced my sim card.
But its all EMPTY
:(
All gone.......................
Mayb...ai nvm...

Shall get 6610
Nicer to sms
N no use gettin ex phone ill jus lose it again
Fuck.

Tis week is doin work week!
hope so.
wth n i didn do wat i was supp to for today
sigh
Actually i noe i cant finish...within d deadline...
Wateva.

At least now im not phoneless...
Courtesy of miss jayne's old fone..
Was tinkin should use my own old one...
but wells...
In it.. still have here n dere
i decided not to...
Bar of soap also as everyone says heh.

Off i go...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

At times,
U noe this is it
It has to be.
Song B.G
One last time it flow down for

Happy Valentine Day,
to all.

The time to love.

Glad to see all dose who were dere in monks...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

I slept in d bus...
Was so tired
overshot my stop
Walked all e way back

Ive got blisters on both my 2nd n 3rd toe of both legs....
from dat day...
sigh.
N goin out lata

/// How i miss you...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Slacker man...
Once again im slackin here heh
when i should be ova dere in my studio doin my work
Which is so damn crucial coz i got 3 deadlines to meet nex week
n dey r reli heavy ones
n i haven been doin ANY of it yet for d past choked up to d brim of time days...
I shall see how i die
haha
I noe jolly well my pior but dey come out wrong...

Ta came ova durin open hse yday
N she said i look old
*cries
haha
man.
sickening.
but well of cos..
afta tis whole week of so much walking late nites not enufff slp
Even wen sch late yday coz i cldn wake up heh
so i skipped both lessons i had yday!
Oppsie.
But i was reli sick in da mornin..
While walkin to d bus-stop i jus had to crumble n sit by the void deck on d floor
ok pathetic i noe haha but i jus cldn walk a step further
d pain in my stomach was piercing
k i hav no idea y it came to me too...

And i am havin bad rashes
sigh
yes i noe i hav ultra sensitive skin n shld b avoidin such outdoor leavy grassy mosquito filled places
but dey are reli nice places...
at least some.

Do u noe i am a walking dust detector?
D moment d place is reli dusty,
My skin comes up wif dese bumps.
So u noe deres dust!
haha

I am excited for the day/days...
:)
Got date wif my budds tonite!
heh heh...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Old blog reading..
Alias
Didn noe it was so much more.......
Dat went thru...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Tired as can be.
Loads of work untouched n not gonna be.
Places goin today.

uploaded pics Monks and Jovin's snaps.



/// I am sooooooooo happy...

Actually ya, i am.
Sorry if not now, den in time i will be..
Jus like you

I will take you my example to follow.
I will fight hard to go the far end from where it all lies..


Counting down to the weekends....

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Don tink le..
:)
But cant get it out of my head ha

Wth..lesson lasted not even half n hr n cher let us off
coz he hav meetin haha
Not even two thirty can
Off to twn!!!!

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Had a dream last nite
It was bad, but it was real.
D feel so real.
Dese days i do not believe in dreams anymore
No wish to dream since...

::I want to live the life u think i have::

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Im so, so tired.

Wen out take shoots
B4 dat while travellin in d bus
Looked at the outsides
Den b4 i noe it i alr dozed off
lk reli dat kinda doze off dat u cant wake up
Den bang!
My head knocked against d window n i woke up.
Gd thing tho else i wld hav missed d stop..
altho ya d journey took me a whole hour
*sighs

I can't describe tis trip any betta.
It was the worst.
A thousand steps up
down
up
n dwn n up...
I got lost.
N i cldn find d place.

Walked round...n round...
Coming back to d same place ova n OVA again.
Walked a whole path of road
Tot muz hav been d wrong way
But who noes it was near end alr
Yet i had to turn n try d otha way
So u see i was goin in circles...
Ai i was reli gonna jus gif up n throw my bag dwn n sit dere...
wherever i am.

Dunno wat kept me goin...

Fuckin blacks get on my nerves.

Den i had to bump into another crazy person again
i alwiz do on my trips y?

Ran into a couple heh-heh-ing too
D guys hand was not dere
Den saw it was behind d ger's shirt(front mind u)
haha entertainment.

Saw a grp of jap ger sch students
N i walked away...bcoz..
i got shy haha
when dey kept lookin.

Things got reli bad
I was on d verge of givin up.

I walked for a whole 2 n 3 quartz hour
b4 i finalli found it.
I realise its not easy at all to reach dat place
Yet d otha tm did by coincidence
so fated.

D exact spot.
sighs.
Could still see..

Den i still cldn find d exact tree..
reli wen up n dwn d whole place many times..
hai.
Had to gif up since reli cldn find.
But jus den i found...
D red little ones.
Finally.

All d bendin downs got me aching..
D sun burnin down on me made it much worse.
Suddenly felt a sharp pain on my feet
Fuck tis fuckin huge red ant d size of my thumb was on me
I looked closer d place was lk infested wif dese creatures
But i cldn gif up
Jus had to go on...
I bent, almos touchin d tree n grounds.
My hands n my fav brown sneakers were all soiled
More ants on me fuckin painful bites
Den mosquitoes were all attackin me
Its lk i tk a look deres lk 3 on my one hand at one tm
N dey had white spotty legs
I won be suprised if dey gif me dengue fever in no tm
i wanted so much to...leave.
It wasn easy at all.
Reli.
But i stayed.

Finally done.
I wasn in good shape in any sense already.

N got lost, once again.


Survived barely to d station.
bumped into neighbour good thing.
Den bumped into maine in hrtland mall
acc her n loolin awhile

I still feel d itch eeps.
Deres so many bites on me now
:(

Feel d tired body giving way....
But i guess when u put ur hrt in it,
its worthed it.

A fool's day.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Sometimes in a rush
we do things off the moment
It doesn't hit us
till u sit alone by the setting sun
Time allowed the frozen senses to reawaken
The thoughts to flow
The feel revived
How do u spell
r e g r e t.


Should haves
and if onlys.
Now i can only wait...
For the next moment shot again

Tat time d moment shot i should hav grabbed it
Tis time i noe how important it is
I will certainly not let it slip me by...
Camera by me all ready...

Today shall concentrate on shootin in f
Wif my camera n out i go...
:)

So much projs to be done
But i wld sacrifice...
I would still go.

Yes now all i need is a reli long hug.


///Every word i saw killed me.

I know it is sth i muz do...
Like a kite.

Good day to all.

3 more days to Vday...
:)
Just to see you.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Mayb Jay is rite...
If sth's like dat,
we try
but,
we r not d ones who wld keep tryin n tryin
we wld jus let it be den.
u decide.

Or perhaps wat kel said is rite too...
Past.
one time can take away all our faith
n change us
perhaps we are tired souls.

Gif me something dat is worthed
And tis tm true

Am tired.
But still stuck in sch
waiting for clock to strike seven.

Loo finalli blogged haha.
Miane n loo wen sentosa to tk pics
I want to go...
But den again mayb not..

The much-anticipated wait.
The "never-did".
The broken thoughts.

Tis week is heavy.
Gotta gather my concentration.
So much deadlines to meet.

And
So little time
But i still have to go somewhere far...
Got to do sth

Can't wait for friday n saturday to arrive...

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Yay! Finished my write up finalli!
Still haven even touch on my visual A3 artwork...studyin for psycho test...compeleting psycho journal assignments...
bleah
sigh

Kiasu is a hokkien term which literally means ‘scared to lose’.It describes those who want all they can get for whatever they pay and they try to get the best deal. Every nationality has its own Kiasu-types, but Singaporeans have coined a word and mascot for it. Most of you will agree with me, when the word “kiasu” is being mentioned, Singaporeans will come to many’s mind.

It is not a wonder why this is so. Isn’t it a common sight, where people will crowd round the entrance of the MRT even before the train arrives, like they were ready to pounce onto the train the moment the door slides open. Late last year, with the opening of the NEL line, a travellator has been built along the linkway of Dhoby Gaut station. This travellator was to facilitate those who don’t wish to walk the long pathway. But more often than not, you see people on the travellator and yet still walking. So the purpose of the travellator has become not to facilitate those who do not want to walk, but to help people to “walk”at a faster rate. Talking about reaching there first, talking about being number one, talking about kiasu-ism.

Being number one is constantly on every mind of a typical Singaporean. This perhaps arises because Singapore is a really competitive society. And with yet another typical trait of Singaporeans of loving to show off and not wanting to “lose face” (pride), they will go all the way out to be the best. This is good in the sense that it serves as a motivation for people to strive hard and to stretch their potentials. However, on the other hand, it can bring ill effects if it becomes too prominent. One such case is the deprivation of childhood of today’s children. Parents are too preoccupied with the intention of creating success for their children that they sign up almost all the courses(be it academic or music, arts etc) they can get on hand for the little ones. Or perhaps wanting the best for their children is but a convenient cover-up for some of these parents who put it simply, so that they can stick their nose into the air when neighbours gather to discuss about the children’s results. Playing under the sun and getting all dirty and muddy have now been replaced by hour after hour of extra classes. Children are no longer children. It is indeed pitiful.

In another aspect, kiasu also means not wanting to lose out on anything. This is perhaps one reason that makes marketers smile and never failing to target Singaporeans for profit.
It isn’t too difficult to make Singaporeans willing to part with their money for something that they do not even need. The trick, is to throw in discounts or even better free gifts and most probably you will get your sales done. Not wanting to lose out on anything at all, even if its cheap thrills, Singaporeans will normally go for it. That is why during free giveaways or discounted sales, you see dragon queues. For example, at the launch of MacDonald’s Kiasu Burger, a marketing gimmick was thrown in: People who showed up at six-thirty a.m could buy the burger for one Singapore cent. As many as a hundred and thirty five were sold in half an hour, with kiasu Singaporeans queuing up as if it were the last sale on Orchard Road. It is said that sometimes, Singaporeans queue up without even knowing what they are queuing up for!

This grab-all-you-can and afraid to lose out trait is probably what distinguishes Singaporeans from people of all other nationalities. This kiasu trait allows you to look at one in another country and know straightaway that this person is a Singaporean. On a tour abroad, the tourist who rushes up the tour bus, chooses the best seat, and then put bags, camera, sunglasses and every other possession on the seats around him to reserve for his family and friends, we can be ninety nine percent sure he is a Singaporean. At the departmental store sale, the shopaholic who grabs everything in sight and decides at the cashier’s counter whether to buy it anot and if short on cash, he hides the bargain-basement offer elsewhere in the store so that he can buy it later, you can be sure this one’s a Singaporean too. And at elegant resorts, the tour group that brings plastic flasks to the breakfast buffet and fills them up with freshly squeezed orange juice, you will most probably be right in your guess that the group’s from Singapore.

What then, caused Singaporeans to possess this kiasu-ness in them? In my personal opinion, I feel that the environment has made Singaporeans kiasu. We were always told to be Number One, so we had the best airport, the biggest port. I think this draws back to our history and culture. Singapore is but a tiny red dot on the world map. When our ancestors arrived here, Singapore was but a piece of flat land with not much worth. They worked hard day after day and even had to fight hard for Singapore’s independence and finally brought Singapore to where she is today. The success didn’t come overnight but with much effort and sweat. Thus, it has been passed down generation after generation that we Singaporeans must not relax or else others will take over us. Hence, I reckon Singaporeans are still insecure and brought up with the thinking that we must want the best of everything, and thus comes kiasu-ism.

An interesting fact is that the kiasu word has gained international academic recognition: The Ohio university Press defined it in A Dictionary of Political Terms in Singapore.

Be it that Kiasuism is a good or bad thing for Singaporeans, we can’t deny the fact that Kiasuism is one of the few things uniquely Singaporean that sets Singapore apart from the rest of Southeast Asia. I end this article with a quote by Kuppy Lau the inventor of the famous comic character , Mr Kiasu, in relation to this typical Singaporean trait. “If Britain had Mr.Bean, the U.S. Bart Simpson and even Malaysia enjoyed Lat, why not Kiasu in Singapore?”

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Maine jus wanna be so sweet in her blog.
*smile
Thanks ger n truly hope u will cheer up reli soon.
Sorry cldn join u guys las nite
After nex week k! :)

Mac brkfast tis morn
Happy litt kid.
Did a litt work
Morning is more productive.

Den dessert for lunch.
N didn go church...

Spent money on useless stuff again.


Somewhere out there-Our lady peace

Last time I talked to you
You were lonely and out of place
You were looking down on me
Lost out in space
We laid underneath the stars
Strung out and feeling brave
I watched the red orange glow
I watched you float away

Down here in the atmosphere
Garbage and city lights
You've gone to save your tired soul
You've gone to save our lives
I turned on the radio
To find you on satellite
I'm waiting for this sky to fall
I'm waiting for a sign
And all we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see, yeah
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity, yeah
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

Hope you remember me
when you're homesick and need a change
I miss your purple hair
I miss the way you taste
I know you'll come back someday
On a bed of nails I'll wait
I'm praying that you don't burn out
Or fade away
And all we are
Is all so far

You're falling back to me
The star that I can see, yeah
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there
You're falling out of reach
Defying gravity, yeah
I know you're out there
Somewhere out there

I like tis song man.

Sunday passes so quickly wo church haha

Hope ure feeling betta..
imu.

Moulin rouge on tonite.
D song will play..

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

I stayed home on a saturday
Can u believe it
so guai huh ha!
Mayb its d 4 hrs of slp las nite
Felt not rite.

Watched a korean show
N i hate shows dat make me tink....

Dey left me wif no dinner
hmm.
Made oat
But so terrible
forgot sugar heh
Still not gd
Added choc syrup
*tadang
Nicey!

Work work work
still not done

Run was good tho
When darkness fell it took me over.

//// Nothing's gonna stop us now-Gareth gates
Still in my limewire
A song dat neva was sent den.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

D moment im home
Stupid judy had to rush into d bathroom
Fuckin piece of shit rite?

Now im gonna slp at 5am...

Y am i still listenin to tis..


Decided to forgo work for a nite out
Figured i wldn hav d hrt to do anythin anyways

Wen town reli late.
Walked ard for inspiration
Slacked at Spins
We were seriously fallin aslp.
Waited for big rach
Wen dwn sos
U turned immediately to monks
Walk down...
I hate walks along dese places now...

Kel n me were friggin in front of d rest
So we had a gd tok.
Sigh how true...
Wat fools love can make one...

All dats happened changed us as an individual
Perhaps not knowingly, but unevitably.

Wats behind the smiles..
can u see

Everyone wen crazy in monks
Everythin lost its cool too.
I saw things...dat weren't even dere.

Almos all were tipsy, but suprisingly today i wasn't.
Wif a clear head but not quite clear mind

Den everyone gave up being the good one
dey had fun mingling
picking up
Thru d pain thru d self-denial

The clear headed got muffled by the contradicts

Funny wierd conversations i hear
Drinkin...n more drinkin..

Had a craving for ice-cream
N so i wen to get it.

Ended d nite wif egg prata

=I needed the music to drown myself=
=I needed the crowd to remind me i was still alive=


/// I'm sleeping with the lights on....

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

If eva something means alot to me
I will fight for it wif all i have
Obstacles will not get me down
Isn't it tis way

Yay! another tub of cashew nuts!
Eat eat eat..
I guess im stressed up man!

DO WORK DO WORK *chants
eh but wat am i doin here
tom gotta hand in sketch eh!
GO!
Sat i wanna do work...
but wld i be?


All tis time-Michelle Mcmanus

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Guess wat!
Lessons at nine tis morng...
i woke up at 8.54
Somehow i felt my hp drop on me n onto d floor las nite while i was slpin
But was so tired cldn even move
N d hp alarm jus didn ring tis morn
fuck sia!

Blew out of hse
Blew at everythin dat was in my way too
Dat includes my granny
Things r bad enuff
so fuck out of my way
Didn i say dat b4

Cabbed dwn but was an hr late
Teacher jus didn wan to mark my attendence
so i walked out of class
Simple as dat rite ha!

I am such a deliquent.

Oli jus msg me
sayin deres many indians dunno celebrate wat
but too bad she didn hav her cam w her
N i replied
Even if u hav ur cam n u take dem
U won b able to see anythin
heh ok
I am bad.
pple shld jus fuck off frm me for d moment.

Anyways out of class..
Chatted w cj n slyvia
Den ltr rach n steph.
Heh all ova.

Dark room.
I stayed in dere for 7 hrs...
:(
Didn even noe it rained la haha
My hands, my tis, my tat, all acidified

Didn study 4 psy test
so obviously it was screwd.

Was alr 8 plus when i reach hm
9 to 8 gosh
longer den workin hrs
n i dun even get paid!

No tm for gym
No tm for swim
No tm for writtin
No tm for slackin
No tm for breathin
No tm for thinkin

Hands kept busy on TEN assignments which needa mt deadlines nex wk.
All d way till....VDAY wth rite...

Vday
Some pple's gonna laugh
Some pple's gonna cry
Some pple's gonna be dere
Some pple's gonna stay home
Some pple's gonna wish dey could be somewhere
Some pple's gonna learn wat dey reli want
Some pple's gonna think
Some pple's gonna gif
Some pple's gonna...

I dun wanna continue haha

Wateva comes.
N wateva for dat.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Sigh.

man.
Friend reminded me to tk my quizz test
deadline was 4th feb.
fuck sia lucky deadline extended n she reminded me
else i fail my test! urgh.
N i didn even know digital imaging proj due today!
fuck...now even if i hand in tom...
marks hav been deducted.
Wat...JOVIN r u daydreamin or wat!!!!!
get a hold!
N fuck u!

WAT the hell!
I brought my cam today...
but i forgot d film!
N cldn get from any shop bcoz dey do nt sell black n white anywhere..
:(
Tom will be short of one roll. eh!
Walked whole of bedok but cldn get it!

Maine came dwn
N started tellin me story again!
haha im so entertained la!
She bought me sugar cane juice! so nice rite! hehe
Of cos...she's lk my mother! :p

We took a long tm to decide where to go
I decided on joochiat again
since i had not much film n we hadn got much tm...
Like wat i predicted...
suai things happened!
haha.
while takin sth, suddenly water was splashed fr upstairs!!!
lol
*jovin walks further away from maine wahaha
Today's photo-takin wasn so efficient tho...

sighs.
neva be the same.

/// I DUN FEEL LIKE DOING ANYTHING FROM TIS MOMENT...

Dad's bdae.
Shall make him a card!
Damn hungry
pineapple tarts, chips, nougarts...
All d junkies man.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Gonna finish my last tub of cashew nuts!!

Almos done wif my 1 roll!
Followed inspiration
33, n dropped at joochiat
Snapped n snapped...
Onli to realise i was at east coast rd at d end of it

Saw many cute houses..one whole row of attap hses...but d nicey elegant ones!
Saw white roses planted outside one of d hse so cool
Many gd food stalls!
Tiny hotels..
N many wierd shops!
so i got quite entertained!
Helped an old lady push her cart
Den it started to rain
realise i dunno where i was?
Asked for directions..
N i conclude i jus cant cross roads..
I won b suprise if one day i get knock dwn by anythin haha

Managed to get back.
Still got one roll n 6 shots more to go..
Mayb tom finish up..
Have to actually! haha

Damned..
all d assignments gonna come to deadline le...
helpppppppPPpppp!
eh fri sat..
somebody ask me out to do work!!!!!!
else i stay hm won touch any of it at all...
:(

It was a right thing
No matter wat people tink

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Feel like going to take shoots...
Need to be in d daydreamy mode
N feel d sun
Where do i go...

N i can't ask......



/// I wouldn’t know ho-oow to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you’ve got your smile back
Now you say your right on track

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

The sun has to shine...in a way or another...

Neva been town so early since god noes when...
haha.

N dear had to overslp
When i reach she jus woke up!!
Haha but its ok...
Somebody worked hard las nite..hee

So i walked ard all alone...window shoppin heh..
But 3 quarts of d shops not even open! heh
Can get early bird award le!

Movie tix queue was lk how long la..
luckily had back door hlp haha
didn even hav to queue lol
Didn get to watch peter pan coz it was too late a tm
Wen for Stuck on u instead..
Finalli arrived n we walked all d way to level one...
onli to decide to eat at lips
haha how silly la!
Had italian tiramisu cake!!!!!
yummy!

D movie was funny.
nex shows i wanna watch is PP, Along came polly, Big fish, etc..
I am so into movie mood!
But i need to rob d bank first...

Afta show we wen...toilet..
wahaha ya
N den to meet d rest at paragon
Den dear wen recordings
I'll get one copy of d cd! haha

I wen bac meet maine n loolin!
Ate at coffee beans
Afta dat was walkin n walkin ard...
N we luff till we had stiches la!
Dese friends reli brighten me up!

N yes since she complain i nv mention her in my blog..
GERMAINE...was dere!
:P

She told me stories again hehe
Den she said..
"I should hav stood by ur side wen u needed me d most,
and not have left you...
And its such a shame dat someone had to come n remind me dat instead of me knowin it myself..."
So sweet...if a ger says dat to me ill jus melt
wah! maine maine!
Tots dat go far man...
words of wisdom man!
U get a credit from me
:)

Now i muz blog our crazy way hm as maine asked for..
It was jus laughin n laughin all d way hm la!
Started off wif d suai things dat alwiz befall on maine
Walked past d carpark
N maine told us bout her birdshit experience
N i told her i kena before also
haha so we walked tog bcoz accordin to her..
Neg plus neg...bcums positive! wahahaha

Nex in d train station
We saw tis couple...
I said pretty ps alwiz end up wif ugly bungs..
But i said...mayb her character's good
Den dat looloo jus had to walk over n look haha
N tink dey noticed
Loo made such a funny demonstration bout how she folded her arms n stared b4 we wen in2 d train..
But dat was all...
we luffed all d way but it was ova our own jokes
N guess dat round fishball tot we were tokin bout her
So jus as dey were leavin d train
she stared at us again
N....i tk no more...
when she pointed d middle finger
N wth she didn even hav d courage to do it when shes beside us?
wait till go out...n door close...den point?
dats it ah..u noe i won charge unless u attack first..
I dun care d whole train passengers will see..
I do it OPENLY k..
Showed her my courtesy
Waved her goodbye...
Wif my third finger, dat is to say.

Afta dat jokes were so funny i can die
Well,too bad u prove me wrong bout d character part
so i dun c y i shld defend u

Air pork man.

Dropped by upp sg for dinner
Minced pork noodles woo...
Maine n me saw a pot of fishballs....
n we laughed immediately haha!

Oh ya jus rem sth dat happened to auntie maine earlier!!!
Wen she came out of toilet...
her bag got stained by tis...sem-liquid thingy..
So she n loo was tellin me it looked lk "chap"
So i said "gravy"?
But actually dey meant...u noe u noe...?
N luffed deir heads off...
dey r alwiz luffin deir heads off at me la!
:p

Thanks "jiemei" for d laughs!!!
But cld hav done wo all d whinings! haha


Thank u for meaning wat u said...
Ill say dem to u too...
///Tis fight will be worthed it

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love

Jovin

I believe in gravity but i don believe in tis world// I see not white n black but mostly greys// Smile like u mean it// Jus a ride go round n round-Life// Only best thing-u fill my little world//


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