Tuesday, January 31, 2006 @Tuesday, January 31, 2006
It reli takes alot doesnt it
Sometimes wat u gif is not wat u get
The river doesn flow in only one direction
Sometimes u meant to make it good
But the wind blew it d other way
Sometimes u reli planned it nice
But it gets tangled
Why.
The long wait
how slow every min passed
how u were on my mind all d tm
how happy i was
how much i had been anticipating
Did communication walled up
Why one thing i wanted to express drew up something u couldn see
The surface wat is seen is tis bad situation u see
why isnt dere a way i could make u noe all d feelings i feel in me
It is a language i dunno how to speak
d one i willingly would learn, for u
How to speak
How to listen
Wat to do
To make it all good
To gain ur smile
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, January 01, 2006 @Sunday, January 01, 2006
Let me tell u about a hopeless family
My family
Its new yr
But i am unwell
Other ppl might be fed with concern
Peace, at least.
But u shoot me
Wif all ur claims n disbeliefs n scoldings
All the unnecessary words on...what?
The medical bill.
How can u all go about
For massages or spas costing hundreds n hundreds
catching ballet performances or plays at d esplanade costin hundreds bcos d girl likes them
N even paying when d little girl claims money frm u after lunchin wif her friends at Marche.
I understood mayb how hard its on u so many of d so expensive work expenses i nv claimed
Ive shoved all of dese the daily things under my breadth
Never wanted to be calculative with you all over all these useless materials
For ive seen more den enough its all rubbish.
But,
could u jus spare me a way here.
Being sick, i am reli so uncomfortable.
U all.....?
Make me feel like dying.
U make me hate this world
U make me become a boxed up kid wen i was 5 or 6
I was lucky to became betta
u all nv became betta
Wat gd is it for me to get betta
U all push me to the edge so many many times
I reli wish to jump sometimes.
Sometimes having a family or not doesn't matter
Having tis kind of family.
It would spare me some of the agony i go thru
Stop putting up the act anymore ok.
To me, i only have one person as family now.
Thank u for u.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
