He was busy wanted to take a call So passed e papers to me I just sent e fuel figures for him out of kindness
Tis kind intention got me into deep shit E norm is when we didn say anything its flight plan fuel But i don blame him entirely I didn check
Tats y i dislike it when ppl joke around durin work Durin work when its busy work is work
N other departments ppl can jus be like tat Delay was on other reasons so there wasn a obvious reason for u to bring up tat report wasnt it N wasnt it settled last nite when DM called? Just a stab in e back Times tat we helped ur side Fuckin i donno wat to say man
Hours of tm hearin tat earful from boss Spare me man.
Den tat colleague could call n msg me Tellin me he don wan get e warning letter N tat if i dont ask boss to give it to me he would get it
ok FUCKIN fine I am not as no balls as u a guy ok Ill jus ask boss to give it to me
Stop all the thinking
I am having such a bad headache Wats wrong I betta head for bed
I stand, i stand In e furthest of furthest feeling im exhausted and nothing else to lift me I wish, i wish I could take it off and set off to another place...
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 @Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I am so tired But yet the voices pierce my ear drums like a gust And i had to be awoken
And my ego has to be hurt like this again Like it were some toy to begin with
I had to grow up Hearing all the fuck that brings me down when i am not Hearing it from the people dear who say it Reducing me to tears tho i fuckin wished not
I had to grow up Believing i was this lousy Believing i never could do anything Believing i was wayward
How many times have u broken my heart
Even though e moment u came in u used that gentle voice n caring Don't give it to me
I feel like busting u
Have u ever thought for me
I never had love and care I dont need them since then
Dont need u to care for me U can love the other Just Leave Me ALone.
I cant wait... To get out of this nightmare...this fucking nitemare...
///Been in lousy mood...i wished i could leave...to some place...///
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I am so tired But yet the voices pierce my ear drums like a gust And i had to be awoken
And my ego has to be hurt like this again Like it were some toy to begin with
I had to grow up Hearing all the fuck that brings me down when i am not Hearing it from the people dear who say it Reducing me to tears tho i fuckin wished not
I had to grow up Believing i was this lousy Believing i never could do anything Believing i was wayward
How many times have u broken my heart
Even though e moment u came in u used that gentle voice n caring Don't give it to me
I feel like busting u
Have u ever thought for me
I never had love and care I dont need them since then
Dont need u to care for me U can love the other Just Leave Me ALone.
I cant wait... To get out of this nightmare...this fucking nitemare...
///Been in lousy mood...i wished i could leave...to some place...///
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I am so tired But yet the voices pierce my ear drums like a gust And i had to be awoken
And my ego has to be hurt like this again Like it were some toy to begin with
I had to grow up Hearing all the fuck that brings me down when i am not Hearing it from the people dear who say it Reducing me to tears tho i fuckin wished not
I had to grow up Believing i was this lousy Believing i never could do anything Believing i was wayward
How many times have u broken my heart
Even though e moment u came in u used that gentle voice n caring Don't give it to me
I feel like busting u
Have u ever thought for me
I never had love and care I dont need them since then
Dont need u to care for me U can love the other Just Leave Me ALone.
I cant wait... To get out of this nightmare...this fucking nitemare...
///Been in lousy mood...i wished i could leave...to some place...///
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I am so tired But yet the voices pierce my ear drums like a gust And i had to be awoken
And my ego has to be hurt like this again Like it were some toy to begin with
I had to grow up Hearing all the fuck that brings me down when i am not Hearing it from the people dear who say it Reducing me to tears tho i fuckin wished not
I had to grow up Believing i was this lousy Believing i never could do anything Believing i was wayward
How many times have u broken my heart
Even though e moment u came in u used that gentle voice n caring Don't give it to me
I feel like busting u
Have u ever thought for me
I never had love and care I dont need them since then
Dont need u to care for me U can love the other Just Leave Me ALone.
I cant wait... To get out of this nightmare...this fucking nitemare...
///Been in lousy mood...i wished i could leave...to some place...///
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, August 18, 2008 @Monday, August 18, 2008
She spits out her poison kills again.
If u can raise ur voice so can i.
Have u ever felt how it felt when ure shaking whole body with anger
Even if im a nobody Why must u keep doin tis to us Our sorrow is your joy.
Ur wickedness hits me inside n out
I didn even eat a single thing from my dinner plate i threw my dinner all away
Why must u be so mean
I hate you I even wish i could hurt u physically
You have made me hurt For so many years
Do u know how bad how bad how fuckin bad i feel inside. All that hurt all that ive put up since small.
U are a christian even? I spit to that.
I am a stepdaughter But i am also a human. Have u forgotten?
And i want to know..... Can somebody answer me
I try to be a good person always i smile courteously, i always try to help, i always try to make people smile
What then, have tis world given me
Many tell me you have a good life Dont ever say that when u dont know how i feel
U all tell me ur probs But have u ever reached e point U stand at e edge n any moment u may choose to be dead den alive It takes much more. N when i feel that, carrying all of the pain so long, Dont ever tell me that.
Soul less Is what u find me. In side this body, Empty.
I went , walking in e heavy heavy rain It couldnt wash away my wounds But i felt so good fuckin good that my tears could go with e rain
The lightning strikes across like no ones buisness It doesnt bother a fuck shit to me Wat could be frightening?
I am all torn inside
Nobody cares.
N i hate u, mother
Mother It doesn mean a thing just a word.
Why did u bring me to tis world n den forsaken me?
Do u understand wat it reli means to be without mother.
Do u noe, mother?
Living in fear first day of sch to when i finish Living in fear of e other woman And quenching my fist as she hit me e first time
I hit her daughter She came to me I get hit Who, den, comes?
Never having some one to talk about troubles about problems Never had anyone to talk to at all All all every fucking thing i only could keep it and hold it myself
E reason why i became this introvert kid back den E reason why i am this broken person i am today
The torture i went through u will never know.
I feel so much pain N i cry i break
I hate this world Today i will make it a day From today onwards I only have in place these people The only who cares, but i wished more sometimes.
Co, and my auntie.
There used to be some other people i held But now thinking they did hurt me its true N not once but again n again They didnt really care after all.
//////A painstricken heart, a hurting mind, a long broken soul........//////
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 @Wednesday, August 13, 2008
PK 蕭敬騰 He sings well.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, August 06, 2008 @Wednesday, August 06, 2008
These days ive been gettin injured..
First i had e tiny hole on my arm which i have no idea how on earth i got it But it started to bleed ALOT when i was workin one day As i was wearin jacket i just felt suddenly As if some one poured water down my sleeves I felt funny but since i didn spill water i ignored it Till e blood flowed down rite to my fingers I was "Shit wat is tat" I sneaked to e toilet n damned!! My whole jacket was blood all over in e underneaths N i was like sayin "fuck" coz e blood was drippin all over e toliet basin n floor n i had to clean it I was so scared someone would come into e toilet N I was so worried how i could go back office Coz e bleedin would not stop Everytm i wiped e blood off it bled all over again
I was saved when i pasted a wonderous thing over called "plaster"
e next day came back frm midnite I tot should be alrite le So i took off e plaster N damed! it started bleedin so much so MUCH again I was literally drippin blood N it stained my table, chair n whole floor Wen out n my ah ma was like very anguished by how much i was bleedin She immediately ask me stop it but not i don wan its i cant !!! After much bleedin i pasted another plaster But lots of cleaning up to do man :(
Such a tiny hole.. but bled so much! I myself am amazed!
But some people just dont care a tad Though i wished they will.. It brings me down. but Anyways im used to it Perhaps it makes me easier to be go farther as well.
Den... E durian injuries I feel quite silly too heh
But thanks for caring.. :)
Since e bleedin my arms have been aching alot Sometimes at nite it aches so much i feel like dismantling my arms man heh ok but coz its reli so bad i cant slp
A bit borin n gross blog entry But tink tats all for now.. -Giggs
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
& PROFILE
Jovin
I believe in gravity but i don believe in tis world// I see not white n black but mostly greys// Smile like u mean it// Jus a ride go round n round-Life// Only best thing-u fill my little world//
