Thursday, February 22, 2007 @Thursday, February 22, 2007
I stayed out till the nite eats into me
The escape, the first nite.
How many more i meekly ask
I drowned myself in toxication
wishing i could lose myself
I drowned myself in an explosion of thoughts
dat flew out of control
I lied in bed
with a spinning head
I had to ask myself why the pain does not superpass that in my heart
Day at work sucks alot
A part of me hoped to work till death
Hoping not a second to think
Theres nobody i can tell.
Nobody to hear me
Then i saw,
the bird flies with its head high
N i sunk deeper
into the bottom of the sea bed
Who will know what i feel
I myself dun.
Lose myself
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, February 21, 2007 @Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Today
i found out.
More than one
They always say trust ur instinct
I trusted in the one
I was proven wrong.
I dunno how to face, n i dunno anything
I tink i cant get about it
I lost myself in thoughts
I just wan to go inside,
and hide.
I grew up,
in a world all cracked
If anyone could understand i tot it was u
Should know betray means how much to me
My real or should i just say childbirth mum, for some one not at all real to me
My dad , who could hav changed it all but didn
They can never blame me for the feelingless i feel for them
Should know i hav told that when i trust, dun ever let me realise there was a lie
I sensed, i denied, i trusted i reli trusted
But still,This is the third one.
In any sense, i have said
My stand for that inccident
Listen this is my last
It was against my will, n i did my part
I didn choose it, my choice was against it
Not there to see doesnt mean i didn
They can see it, im different from the other
I always keep my distance, i feel not a shit thing
They can see, but u cant
I hav lost to time then.
Y am i killed for something that isn't in me
If i was guilty n i was shot i would hav felt better
But nevertheless, come what may
My conscience is clear i won feel
As for thoughts of all that i held in us
I dun even know
I dunno wat to tink
I just know what i feel inside is tearing my every part
To know that i have believed, despite never believing in anyone tat easy
N it has killed me.
Should know how we hate gs.
Didn u understood how insecure bcos of reality
We lose
N now u lied of tis very point that pierces me.
The ache comes with the thinking back
n wat i thought i used to know
n wat the beautiful picture i had in my heart
The girl that used to
n i always thought
when i peel off the pretty petals
inside is the simple girl who loves and is happy just me
That fades away...
U r harping over something that doesnt exist
Not knowing i have lost myself to the broken vow
To disappointment.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, February 20, 2007 @Tuesday, February 20, 2007
There is always a duo effect
Why is?
Why does the things dat matter most to u
is able to bring u down totally
Why does the one u hold so dear
always never know what u truly give
Why does your most happy
can be your most sad
Why do the thing u do
always appear different from one's sight
How then can i
If only transparency between
Then mayb we can see
Then mayb all will be true
How else can i make known then
no way
so i hang my head n sigh
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
