Friday, April 22, 2005 @Friday, April 22, 2005
Today its ur death anniversary.
Until today
I still can't fathom
why u could harden ur heart
leave us behind..
U didn see it coming rite
all d thorns we would hav to go thru
Yet in a corner of my heart,
i hold my love for u.
My only pillar of strength..
it fell against me tonight
Out on d sand by d waters
Dere wasn' any stars tonight.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, April 18, 2005 @Monday, April 18, 2005
shit. my com hang n my whole entry got deleted
lazy to re-type man
shall cut eveythin shorter
finally finish my 'test'
gotta wait for tester's comments later tis week.
i guess i seldom pull things to another day.
Im feelin betta today.
Anyways i got introed to a cool website
Its kinda lk a buyin dvd place(i tink its frm msia)
U choose d ones u wan
den in less den few hrs dey call u to inform u ur gds would come in within 2 days tm
Dey send it all d way to u
Its kinda lk a drug deal
D person calls u
U walk ova 2 his car
He doesn come down, he simply winds dwn his car window
Not even half of it, so u hardly even see dat fellow's face.
he passes u d gd, u pass him d money dat clear-cut
nth said more, he drives off.
D gds r wrapped lk drugs..
Plastic bag, n another plastic bag, den taped up wif maskin tape.
Too bad i dun hav a dvd player at hm.
U noe wat i found BUTTERFLY.
Aiya..*pouts.
Anyways,
i guess i am someone who doesn let things follow thru me to another day
Today im feelin betta.
:)
Actually i still got lotsa things on hand.
Many people on d chase after me, wantin to chop off my head alredi
for i owe dem outings
To meet kel for bonding once again.
To meet my chopstick (who jus scolded me 4 nt tellin her im att which i tot i did!haha)
Yet to go shoppin w Shareen whom i haven seen for lk ok..a yr ago?
Joel n celia who has been diggin me out for mths n mths i tink haha
Sometms i jus get all couchy to go out
heh.
Oh n of cos not forgettin...
Waiting for my sayang.
For her busy period pass, when all her work has been done more or less.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, April 17, 2005 @Sunday, April 17, 2005
Its a sunday.
Ive been home d whole day
Mayb dat explains d low atmosphere
my low mood.
Jus feel lk sighin,
sigh sigh n sigh.
Its hard..
A painting with vibrant colors
Doesn mean dat d painter is all at smile.
I guess i am quite good at puttin up a front
Jus so dat i don't affect others
i don't wish to.
But i am still made of blood flowin in me.
N den deres sometimes i wish i could get more of the little things..
Dey r simple
i dun expect much
Little things dat people tink don matter
but dey do.
Little things people overlooked
When life gets too busy,
perhaps we should tk a second to pause
and see.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, April 06, 2005 @Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Frustration
i wished i already grab d ropes of how to handle d software
i memorise i read everyday
i look forward 2 d day when i hav dem at my fingertips
i noe not 2 put so much pressure on myself but i wan 2 prove 2 dem
n if only dey could be nicer people
In dat hole,
d feeling is so lousy.
I only wish to have more support from...
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, April 02, 2005 @Saturday, April 02, 2005
I sliced a part of my finger off
while at work w d huge penknife.
No i should say danglin?ha
yes n it wasn jus a piece of skin danglin
i reli mean flesh
so u cld see my one finger sliced into 2 parts
N d only left joinin part was d tip of d skin of d part sliced.
Seemed lk magic
i saw part of my finger turnin fr purple to black in jus seconds
It took awhile b4 d pain sip into me, n it was FOOKIN pain!
I wanted to carry on my work coz nt v nice 2 tell anyone
Jus a look out of d door 2 mk sure no one walks in2 d room,
but when my head turned back
d entire table n papers were splattered w blood.
N...d boss's chair too! whoops!
Hence in my frantic i reached out for tissue to try to clean d blood dat was lk squirtin from my finger
but i jus cldn stop d blood frm flowin.
damn. no choice i knew i had to get a plaster
so yes i asked.
i asked, hidin my finger behind me
dey tot it was jus a simple cut jus d skin
but when dey saw my finger was lk sliced already dey got all uptight, worse den me.
My fann wong lookalike colleague den dragged me to toilet
When i put runnin water down my finger
gosh i tell u
d burnin sensation.
After washin n washin n using up d whole box of tissue applyin pressure to dat part,
still was bleedin.
muz hav been quite a while n w more tissues, we decided no choice jus att d plaster 1st.
see told u i always get these funny funny accidents.
i feel so handicap.
In tis office 'hole',
i learnt dat deres such a thing as "de-stress syrup" wateva u call it
d lady beside me was drinkin it my goodness tis tell me i ought to worry..
2 interns b4 me had 2 see d psyche doctor halfway n 1 other quit halfway
Oh man.
wat wld become of me would i go crazy lol
No, i mus press on to d end. :)
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
