Monday, February 25, 2008 @Monday, February 25, 2008
Its 3am
I tot i would head to bed str8 after i got hm
But seems like another insomnia nite
Sucks
Shouldn hav drank coffee just now
Or perhaps e bar of choc haha
Ah man i need a mama to stand beside me w a ruler
N hit me everytm i eat choc
Past days ive been buyin bars n bars of choc
Gluttony i am charged for
Dono y but recently ive been cravin so much 4 choc
n ice cream too
Ah man..."Amen to me"
Even a boot camp wouldn save my kilos now heh
I made a resolution to at least go 4 a swim tis mornin
But when my alarm rang i changed to n hr later
Ya i ought to be shot i know haha
but i reli am tired u noe gee
Ok i shall give up my recall one day tis week n take a real off day
Its started to drizzle
I like tis kinda feel..cool cool nite
E songs on my project playlist are playin
Im doin a little of readin online here n dere
Some world news..some google-ing...n my "Ask Capt Lim" webpg
:)
Oh....n where is tat NEC centre
I needa find e adapter?
Sotong!!! Im gonna make u into curry!!!
Haha...but when she looks at me wif those teary eyes
She won my heart once again..haha
Im gonna grind away ur teeth la!!
Its March already!
//Im trying to keep everythin cool...whistle a tune breathe easy//
I need more
more than 24hrs a day
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, February 23, 2008 @Saturday, February 23, 2008
Shrugs
Finally my offday
But a bluff offday tat is
Workin 0530am ltr
Sucks haha but hafta get used
Past 2 days i totally slept past thru time
Supp to be at work but i was still sleep
Yea i know how bad can tat be
But was reli tired
Worked one week thru without off
Can anyone blame me
Anyways took cab both days sigh
guess tats my expensive punishment
But i tink im down with a fever
tats even more pricey :(
Sigh n more sighs
Yday by e tm i reach hm was 2am
Insomnia till 6am
I wished i had a cure
And even when im typin now
i realise 8 missed calls
they ask me go back ot
luckily i call back late
I wonder y im workin so hard
And pls....when is e nex destress day
29th?
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, February 16, 2008 @Saturday, February 16, 2008
1200 am
My bus arrvied at airport terminal
I wanted to turn around and go home
I was totally out of mood to work
But i didn
For i thought..
Wat better way den to work
Tat could put my mind off e thinkings e aches
Why does depression grow by its own
How much more must be added
U ask me wats there more to life
i look to e distance
I can only say to u...nothing
And i can tell u i feel terrible too
When my future's nothing
Wat could i even provide u
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, February 12, 2008 @Tuesday, February 12, 2008
From outside i took a train down
To work at midnight tat kinda feelin is reli sucky
E train towards airport line was me and barely another two others
With e music in my mp3 and thoughts in my head....
It was a sad journey
I was glad it was Will workin
I tot we could at least talk cock abit n share abit on work
Thanks to BOSS due lack of manpower ive never been understudy not even ONCE
for midnite despatch shift yet i go SOLO already
Its damn fucked up
But tats e shit for us now no proper proceedures no time just wait to die
Its ok if ure with pple who do work TOGETHER with u
But if we kenna pple who DISAPPEAR halfway for hours n not auto enough
Can prepare to dig grave n jump
Boss work is to fit pple into shifts e rest he dont care a HOOT
But when things happen, he come after u n shoot like a rifle
Obviously closed an eye to his inefficiency to give us proper trainin
Not even training for us to learn tats luxury
But at least let us be understudy just ONE tm
Bcoz even if we can learn everythin else by our own
we still need to know how to operate e com e commands e proceedure how many to print wat to print n such
We are super humans
But i tink its not good to be able to handle it
Once he throw u into a station n u could do it
Now he assumes u can do anything
I should have acted more stupid
den i can be like e rest n have understudy!
Anyways me n will didn manage to talk cock
AT ALL
We were workin non stop till 7am
Fuck man time flies
I will just be workin my life away really
Knocking off at 9am(actually)
At 8plus, received call Tiger captain reported their printers both down
Asked us to do something
So i said ill email swissport to pass to them
Will say we are knockin off le just leave it to e nex shift ppl
I saw it was reli critical so i say nvm we do
But he didn i took it up then
Damned i should have listened to them
But unlucky i met nex shift not so auto i guess
They SEEMED busy n carryin on with their work
SO it was me
Fucked e email cant get thru or swissport r just fucked up lazy n say they nv receive
so i kept attachin all e files n sending many many MANY FUCKIN times
They asked to fax
FUCKin stupid la i told them its so thick cant
N not to say i didn try it all gets stuck tog so high possibility of missin pages
N of coz it gotta to be precise no pages shld be missing
So i continued tryin
FUCKED thing i copied to our flt ops address n we received all
I reli felt like slamming all e papers n leave
It was my knock off time u noe
Will had already gone
The nex shift ppl didn have e intention to come do it n ask me to go home
I told swissport Hey ur flt is departin in 5 mins u noe tat
I cant stand them its THEIR flt n they are not at all anxious bout it
U wanna work u work it good
Swissport guy asked for my name n dm
Wat, complain? Go on man
But bein on e ball reli brought me nowhere
Dm also said we cant fax
He den ask if i could sign one hr OT
FUCKED VERY FUCKED
n i had to go (in person) to pass e flt plans n documents to BUDGET TERMINAL
Of coz i had to say ok since he said office short of manpower
So i had to take mini van to BT
FUCKED it made me reli giddy
U don fuckin ask a midnite guy who has worked throughout e nite to still be
goin so far at 10plus
When i finally knocked off i was all out
I totally knocked out in e bus way home
Sigh
I always get eaten up as e good soul
If its appreciated at least its worthed it
But more often than not...pple don appreciate
Looking out at everything......................
I only wan to close my eyes n sigh
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, February 09, 2008 @Saturday, February 09, 2008
Take e chance here to wish "Happy New Yr"
Doesn mean any more a significant than every other day
Tis yr didn do much visiting
Worked pretty much
N slept v litt
Ate n ate
Wen to visit my granny n aunt
Learnt tat my granny is ill
I really wish she is well.
Most times, i dont show
how i feel in my heart
Tats y more den often
People never know how much they mean to me
They may never know, they may even misunderstand
But i do not say
Even though it hurts me inside silently
that they do not know they mean tat much
Sometimes we let affection
go unspoken,
Sometimes we let our love
go unexpressed,
Sometimes we can't find words to tell
our feelings,
Especially towards those
we love the best. Yday not too bad
Coz caught 2 movies in a day
"Dunk" n "P.S I love you"
PS is nice
E show is slightly different from e storybook
E book is sadder n e story more touchin
i like e book better actually
How do u cope, really
To lose someone u loved.. so long..
To me, u can never heal.
Chinese new yr tis yr some things make me sad too
Do u continue caring for ones who do not care for u?
Makin an effort but u see they don even bother
Hold in high places but u are not even placed in their hearts.
However, chinese new yr to me don hav to be a explodin one
I did like simple quality spent
May not have big plans, may not be doin much
Mayb a simple meal, mayb a laugh shared or two
A crazy trip to e arcade mayb? :)
I can also DUNK! hurs
Today wen back work
Hai i am so uptight
I am so stressed, to my teeth
I donno if i can handle all
But i am left to die
I close my eyes but it never stops there
I never get to rest
My head keeps spinning
And everything just keeps flashin n going thru my mind
I am also ill
I am facing an eating disorder
Really i keep eating n eatin
I keep thinking i keep ceasing to breathe
N i just eat n eat to escape
I eat mindlessly
In no time i have to see a doc
N seeing myself so out of shape throws me further to depression
But nothing works.
I donno wat im suffering.
I know im crazy to say tis coz i just got back
But i wished i could go away on a trip
Even a day to any place
I would appreciate...
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
