Saturday, January 19, 2008 @Saturday, January 19, 2008
Jerene got married
Happy for her :)
My turn next.. hur
when man
But will be nice
Anyways met up with all e cousins
Irritating got bombarded by so many "Finally see u huh"s
Busy with wat
Of cos is work la doo.
N all was all hoo ha abt my red hair
Damned mayb i should hav dyed my hair after e dinner
Den y nobody noticed when i had black hair for so so so long?
heh o wells
Dinner was alrite,crazy
Except e part e waitress (auntie) called me "xiao di"
Den my cousin wen.."aunti she is not xiao di"
Den waitress said.."Is shuai ge"
Den everyone laughed
When cousin told aunty i am femme
Aunti presented more ginko nuts for my yam paste as an apology
Haha aiya im used to it
At least now i don bother to hide
i dont run away
I dont fuckin care anything
lol
But...feel quite lousy
When i hear others talkin bout their jobs
Its not that mine is nuts
But i just suddenly feel unfair
Not unfair that i should get wat others get
But unfair to myself
For e work tat i put in n have been pushing so hard
N nobody can ever understand how much as in how much time i spend working
N all e shit we get
Tink im reli tired of all
But jovin,
i keep telling myself
I am thankful as well
I am learning alot
Tis is my platform, tat someday it acts as a steppin stone
To get somewhere far
Mayb someday to even fly (even if is close to impossible)
I donno if i will collapse before i get anywhere
Four colleagues leaving
It is gettin so bad these days
tat nobody can take it any longer
N it only gets worse with pple leaving
But maturity has set in me i guess
None of e jobs i held can compare to tis
N i noe out there i will neva find another almost as tough as tis one(i won say none at all)
But i just wan to work hard
I don mind
I want to work hard
For e future
For all e people who will be with me in e future
I want to provide
I want to give happiness
Although now i look
n ahead of me lies more gloom den clarity
N i aint sure if ahead it will all lead me nowhere
But i am gonna persevere.
Now i tink i need to get away
Get away from everything
Re charge
Re vitalise
N not tink of anything
Four more days to e trip
:)
