Wednesday, January 02, 2008 @Wednesday, January 02, 2008
2007.
Reflections.
Lookin back..
A long whirl a journey thus far
Where should i even begin
Tis year i trodded past sand, dust, clives, skies, edges
Edges tat cut
Been thru turmoils
Tat i fell, tat i lost myself
It had been a tough yr
N ppl are sayin 2008 is a bad year for rats
How can it be, how to survive
But there isnt a choice, just a path
The dream
The dream held for such a long tm
e one in ur heart u always kept
e one u believed
N when nothing bleams in tis world n u are worn out
e dream u believed
tat gives u strenth, gives u courage to go on
Yet wen e dream seems near, u feel furthest from it
U ask, was it real
Perhaps it was never ever close
But, e dream left u
Without a thought without a feel without a anything
All tat u held it snatches away
All tat u believed it left u shattered
For all of e effort i put in
It sees none
How could ...?
Striving so much for
Fightin so hard for
Do u noe how much it breaks me
Do u noe how bad i fell
Perhaps ppl are laughin at me
Tat small i am, such high dreams i wished for
And so many factors
tat i could never ever make it.
Even if i put in how much,
I might not reach.
Guess ive been, tell me, am i a fool
Lost n down
wat directions
n tell me wat else could i believe in
Trying so hard
Mayb trying too hard
There won't ever be amount to anything
when the dream no longer holds
Becoz i held it in such a high place
e more painful i fell
But it should stop raining
e dream has already since not be here
Ive done my part
ive gave all i could give
I...i cant control the rest
Why..still ask myself sometimes
but now i figured let it,e way it wants to flow..
For people wise
Its not like i havent been thru rain
Ive been thru storms
I just pray...
For strength to go on
when pple try to break me
May i continue walkin my life
N e day come soon
when i will be able, to stand on my own
n the sun shinning down on me
I pray tat the trials, the edges tat cut..
one day mould me to be stronger
E one thing i lost much tis yr
is my health
For all e workin sometimes im not human
im but a machine
I know i should take care of health coz nth can buy it back
yet i neglect it so much
N its taking a toll on me tis year
I ought to be shot
Thank u
I must say to one person
u stayed there for me
When i was at my lowest times
U stayed with me
When nobody else did
Mayb nobody else cares for me,
except u
Im sorry when i wasn't the best for u
I am not perfect, not even close
But i will try
Every step of e way ahead
2008.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
