Saturday, November 24, 2007 @Saturday, November 24, 2007
I know the sun is shining so bright over that side
Havin fun, smiles n wat...
All that is missing here my side
But its alrite it gets better
How can it be any worse when u hav sunk to the bottom of d seabed?
I tink its bad that i took it seriously
N e problem is perhaps....only i took it seriously...
I slowly push myself to awaken
I must remind myself
i cant hold onto e beliefs tat i held for such a long long time
These beliefs i always held closely
tat e special, sun will always shine for me
But how can i hold tat belief
when its not true
It only eats me inside
N yes i feel the lowest so down n out
i will rem the people, or perhaps i should say person who were there
n who didnt.
Thank u, for being there during my tis difficult period
Hmmm...tom a real offday
Man...shouldn waste it
Mayb should go JB ya!
yes u said it rite....my fav char kuey tiao
Smile.
Heck with the fats lingerin ha!
Yes, n 4 days of off nex mth
Pls.....holiday for me?
:(
Damn tired.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Thursday, November 22, 2007 @Thursday, November 22, 2007
I am so fuckin sick again
Last nite throat hurts so much n couldnt breathe
So stayed up till 5 am
Shrugs
So wanted to tk mc
But was given e lash of d tongue
Fuckin ...i donno wat to say
How hard been workin
who cares
Hours like fuck
Worked like fucked
Day by day more n more tired
Off day they can strike off put as recall for ot without even askin
Fuck u man
Now sick like a bird n i cant tk mc
Human r so selfish
Just bcos all of ya rosters not tis bad u don fuckin bother
No matter how much i love tis job
Its gettin crazy
its drvin me nuts
Fuck it
how much ive sacrificed for tis job
Fuck
Its only a matter of time when i collapse
Fire me
for all i care
If i could scream..............
it all out
How much stress can one hold?
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, November 20, 2007 @Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Just reached hm n its 3 plus am already
Yes delayed again
I had my dinner only 10pm ah damned
how unhealthy
Already been feelin so quilty nt goin for my run everyday
n recently been eatin so much
My mouth never stops tho im not hungry
ok..i know my stress illness is here again
So stressed man sigh
Stop me from eatin!!
I am finishing the packet of nuts now!
urgh...i should stop else ill cough my lungs out soon
last nite was coughin so hard i was kept awake whole nite
tat sucks!
My chest hurts so.. :(
Finally tom off
I am sloggin so hard..
Sometimes i feel
I am workin to feed a family of four haha..
No la..
But must save for one day when i really do marry the ger
i tink i am e kind of person who wanna work hard for a better life for my wife
So..must start now n work hard n save for the FUTURE.
So who wanna marry me?
*looks around
haha
Tis old n haggard old man already....
Cmon...
Im gettin old.
:D
Shrugs 4am already
Hurry go zzzzz
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, November 18, 2007 @Sunday, November 18, 2007
Oh man..
wat a heavy heavy rain
e blur bluriness
raindrops keep falling..
n gosh i was all drippin wet by e tm i ran home
Hope it won make worse my cough
been coughin so hard till my chest hurts :(
Must owe it to boss n Quantas/British Airways!
Since we took over for them, our shift all upside down fuckin hectic!
Can u imagaine..goin to work from 2pm to 1am already 11 hrs
Den bcos of flt delay we were told to stay till 4am..den 5am...n finally 6am
Workin from 2pm to 6am
Wat e fuck!
I'll just get cancer n die ok..haha
n my eyes r like panda black n abt to pop like goldfish's
Sigh..i need eye facial!
n i lookin older n older n uglier n uglier...
must hide in e cave le soon... bleah!
Past thru many 0530am shifts le
hope they swop past quick
Yday was out
Xmas is here hard to believe
Tis yr's lights r nice
:)
Slept 2 hrs before goin for work again
Like a nitemare!
better get rest man
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, November 12, 2007 @Monday, November 12, 2007
Enough
Rest well
Walk on.
Free the weights on e heart
Extinguish out all the thoughts
Why keep on fallin keep on lettin it cut me
When e other side tat never ever cared
How pathetic of me
Bruised, by one sided
When i was at my lowest
felt so bad
i thought i could get the slightest comfort
a small care that would have meant so much to me
but......
i know better now
Why disappointed when i should have already gotten used to it
Should have already known
Wont think of, the next tm
Wont allow myself to hope n fall
For the never there
Thank u for comin down all e way
U shouldn have travelled its so far
for tat barely half n hr tat i could leave my workplace
Im so sorry
But ur presence made my nite better
when i was feelin low
Ur concern reali a comfort to me, when the others didn't cared.
thank u
Shrugs reli feel like goin out there n get dead drunk n jus collapse
but ya rite...
d hangover will suck
hur
Sing a little song say a little prayer
Swing me out... to another place n time
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, November 11, 2007 @Sunday, November 11, 2007
A peek at what our work desk looks like
Fuckin gotta handle so much at a time
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Sunday, November 11, 2007
Worked 2 to midnite
N tat brainless boss wanted me to be back at 5.30am
Come on..i reach hm 1am bathe n all 2am wk up at 3am to go to work
after workin for 11 hrs?
He can go n die man
After senior scolded him too i finally changed it to 8am.
So today 8am to 5pm
N nex shift person came late somemore i stayed even later
n now reach home later slp(provided i can) awhile
n gotta be up at 3am to work at 530
My boss is such an idiot can u agree with me?
He is only fuckin concerned about puttin someone into d shift
not carin if he squeezes us like balls
Its not like we get to lax durin work
ive been crackin my brain n workin non stop for the whole shift, from start to end
While at my terminal....
suddenly i feel really tired
It feels like i am workin n workin...
when i wk up...i am workin n workin again.....
Its good
tat it makes me not thinkin other
But i am very exhausted
i feel depressed
nvm tom afternoon end work and im off le
How optimistic ah wells have to be
I wish so much
to take a day or two
away...
To somewhere nice n relax
Just doing nothing at all
n spend the day slow
///There r somethings i just donno why, can't figure out why///
Sometimes stop to ponder...why am i pushing myself so hard
So cold i could hardly feel a slight feel
Is the way the other side want?
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Friday, November 09, 2007 @Friday, November 09, 2007
Another birthday wen by...
Ya we could grow old just like tat.
How sad i am a old thug soon hur
If only time can stop thereMayb with time flyin by like tat
we might just be 50 soon hurhur
somewhere there
Feels like a dreamKeep closely in the heart
all the heartwarming moments, beautiful smiles
Keep minds clear n out of
all the negative
Another year will pass by
Birthday wishes....
Will they really come true?
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, November 03, 2007 @Saturday, November 03, 2007
Headache
tink lack of rest
from last nite 0530am shift
den was out all d way till nite
so didn get to go for my run again
urgh :(
oh wells mayb i should rest early then
im feelin giddy already
Tom meetin everybody at 11am
ok....whos gonna be late *sniggers
i shall ask for mac breakfast! haha
Hope its a relaxin trip
it will be....dere is sun, n sea!
seasick? hur
Not to tk so many pics
for i jus got a bad haircut.... :(
pissed
can take more random shots of inspiration with cam, not fone
yes
betta quality finally.
Glad
As long as its away from this place...ya?
I am worn out, tired.
///As it gets nearer...dere r fears dere r wonders...thinkin' maybs///
Its just another day
Its not a significant day, when i am insignificant to begin with.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
