Tuesday, October 30, 2007 @Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Fuck, its so painful
Why do i always get burnt..
Its a really cold nite man
Was at bliss
when we got caught by a storm yes d rain's so damn heavy i call it a
storm
Its almost 4am shit
n im still awake
Ya...
we must work hard now
for our cows! hurhur
When we feel sick of work, mus always rem kenken's
"Den tomorrow how?" :p
n Perservere....
Ya...
Goin over to Australia, our dream.
Someday
Leavin this place
leaving all of thats weighing, leaving all of the sights, words, memories...
Out of singapore!
Less one of me
doesn't make a difference aint it rite
////if that is whats wanted if that is whats desired i will walk///
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, October 27, 2007 @Saturday, October 27, 2007
I tot i just wen to bed
Now im sitting here workin
oh man...shrugs
ah well...i shall tink positive
at least i can end work before d sun sets ya!
Yday managed to breathe in some fresher air
good air
But as predicted ate banana fritters, chee kuay, n so many fried stuffs
even before reach
hur how productive
But ok...did get to perspire it out a little
E sunset was pretty
a tinge of pink
But donno why...makes one feel somehow, lost
And...then it was makan time again hurs
Had good food centre food
Was walking back
n suddenly my nose bled
alot
ok it sure was alot
blood just kept flowing
Used up one whole tissue pack
Sorry muz hav scared u be heh
Was tryin to comfort sayin its fine
when....
I felt something choking my throat
I coughed
and there on the tissue...
was blood
Wat the fuck was tat!!
ha i also dunno
First tm in my 23 yrs of my life
But im ok la....
don worry
Cant be cancer wat rite
Eh who knows
hur hurs
oh well...
i don care
//e sea, e waves, e breeze, e sight, ...take me away please...//
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Friday, October 26, 2007 @Friday, October 26, 2007
I am eatin in d middle of d nite again
Shit....am i stressed or wat
Tie my hands else i will bloat n blow at tis rate
Lucky tom gonna beach to work it out a little
tat is if i do hur
before i start the mouth goin again
theres so much good food there
It will be a day off all other else
I hope mind n soul gets to let loose
Yday ended up ktv
But good chill too isnt it
Away from the club
All were there aint it?
Out there enjoyin...
Good fer ya fellas
Spare me....
I had a good day.
But nite wasnt good.
Fuckin insomnia kept me up till 6 plus am again
I needa go get sleepin pills from doc soon if things don get betta
Today
Guess in a pretty terrible mood
Talked to d old man
As expected nothings done
Wats d fuckin point
Mayb its a good thing den
Work n kill myself
Time passes faster wont it
better isnt it
Ok...
tom will have my good off day
Pls don, another nite of insomnia
Fourth nite coming already
i pray
i am tired..............
//Who knows how it feels........beneath.......can i tell.....nope i cant//
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, October 24, 2007 @Wednesday, October 24, 2007
Wake me up n call me out n put my aeroplane
Make me travel for nothing
Senseless
Bastards man u all
Ah wells....
at least i got to meet jay, my beloved dude ha!
Bits of catchin up to do
Chilled out w gayboy was a good time out too...
Must say she spoke wisdom hmmm..
makes one think
and she can be funny made me laugh one or two
which was a gd thing after all d head boggling times
After nites of midnite shifts
Fuck i had insomnia again
i was tired
but i was awake till 6 plus am
tell me how bad can tat be
Yday i was recovering
But today i feel unwell again
Urgh
Ah so be it..
I lost 2 kg past month
But now on eating spree
n there i gained once again
So
movie and eating for today?
Ready
///Spin around, findin a way back to sanity, falling back to the arms of grace///
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, October 22, 2007 @Monday, October 22, 2007
I feel fuckin terrible..My head hurts alot...really giddy...I feel like im gonna puke anytime..Feelin really bad, really sickDon't know why i am here working..
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Thursday, October 11, 2007 @Thursday, October 11, 2007
If i had a pen, i would write a million letters
If i had a speech, i would still be speaking a whole of silence
If i had a touch, i would wish to melt all the cold beneath
If i had a choice of time, i wish always, beyond time
If i had many compasses, i will still be lost
If i could have a smile, i wish it was on the other
If i liked a moment, it would be when i saw it clear
If i disliked a moment, it would be when im drowning in thoughts but still cant figure
If i have a date and year, it would be then
If i could be, i would be all the rest thats ever had and more
If i could go wherever i wanted to, close, would be the only where i wan to go
If i have to go, it would be for the smile
If i had a star, i would present it to show how much it means
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Thursday, October 11, 2007
Fuck the work
N tis boss.
Irresponsible and never really thinking for us.
But wat can we do...
am i not rite
Tis is wat u get for not goin far.
Tis is wat u are left with
no dreams no say and no choice
I put the roster in my face
stare at it like it eats me
I am sad i am really fucked up.
Did i ever tell....i am very tired
My mind.
I wished i could stop thinking
even for a second
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, October 02, 2007 @Tuesday, October 02, 2007
i am hangin' by the edge
hangin' with the least i hold
wat hurt more can hurt tis already broken me?
i cant ask why
and i wont know
i am very tired
all i wished..
but we cant comprehend cant figure
there is nothing i can do
sometimes inside u wished something
but u cant
so u go on each day
showin ure ok
it is so hard sometimes
it feels like u r collapsing
like u cant breathe
i will walk far
if u knew how much it meant to me actually
would u noe,
how my heart cringes
take me away
the thoughts and the mind from going in whirls
put it all in a bottle
silence
keep it
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, October 01, 2007 @Monday, October 01, 2007
Fri back to office
Was greeted by shit once again
It sucks, tis job shortens my life.
The splinter in my thumb is out
I feel pain but yet happy..
Simple little things
go a long way
We should give more care
give time to life's little bits
smile when we feel .
A nite angel do appear
When u wake up in the mornin'
Thank god for the joy
u wished u could everyday
Sometimes time stop
u call it a
moment.
All tat stirs inside
holdin it to make it invisible
An inch closer
i noe i will break
ill be there
Let the special tingles give me strength
to walk ahead of the jagged road ahead
I dunno if i can
at times i feel ill crumble
But listen to heaven its nearer den wat it seems
Will get thru
one day we will reach the rainbow
everyone
//
It is really hard
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Monday, October 01, 2007
Saw my colleague after 1 week
she exclaims in shock "huh how come u lost so much weight?"
i say no..
She says "ur whole face is sharp already"
"R u not eating?"
I find it funny..
its not d case
Jus dat after d string of midnite shifts i didn tk timely meals
Not eatin well
Not sure why but don hav appetite these days
Plus all d stuffs
I knoe its not good..my gastric givin me pains on my left side already
Always d case from last tm, stressed when studyin or others
ill get gastric
wells...it not dat bad la
dere r still ppl who might tink im too fat
:)
I'll soon put on soon
I lose n gain reli fast.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
