Monday, December 24, 2007 @Monday, December 24, 2007
Tis year..
Xmas but i aint feelin all too wonderful
In a corner
It tugs my heart
I am tired from work
workin 2 shifts with min rest between
N it was such a fucked up and long day last nite
It aint too merry
I wished to have dinner together too
But i wont be so thick skin to be there when my presence is not so welcomed
by her
I am one who can be quite unbothered if u wan it
She can rest assured
i don't intend n i dont need "to be there"
e rest can go ahead n enjoy
Ill be in a corner quiet
n im fine
N how sad for e other thing too
When u all matter to me
But trampled on me
I am like a stupid fool
Foolish n damned
I shouldn bother at all
when e other side doesnt even take into mind a thing
Why did i even let it upset me
Are u all gloating n happy to see tat im upset
This is wat i get
When i put in effort
Dont take it for granted
for someday tis will all dissolve
N if tis wats wanted
It will all come to place some day
Push to e edge..it will snap
*shrugs
Xmas cant be all dat bad..
Thank u for being there for me
always
when e rest didnt
It will be better tonite..
Its about time to shower n be out
I got something BIG! :)
Merry xmas,
really.
If only there were home cooked dinner tonite....
Someday we will
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
