Friday, December 22, 2006 @Friday, December 22, 2006
Today, yet another war.
You
Fuck u i could nv scold u enough
n it would nv add up to ur scoldings u made me listen throughout twenty over yrs.
You
are the reason y my insides r all SCARRED.
d reason y i grew up all ugly.
You r d reason y i hate.
Hate life, hate everything i walked from childhood.
You
have no right to hit me, ever
today dat one bcos of YOUR child,ur REAL one
To my grave, i will nv forget.
To everyone i gave grace, i suppress n i gave.
But YOU, fucking u n all, nv taken my giving.
You
if i could wonder if i could give u a hint
U, being a person, can u at least not be so OBVIOUS wif ur BIASness.
Or be a real soul n jus admit how FUCKIN bias u r.
Or r u too blinded by wickedness to see ur own shit
FUCKIN faker.
You
r d reason dats drivin me crazy over all d shit i put up in d yrs
i could hit u i could stuck a knife in u
(mind u it wldn even mk up all d wounds u inflicted in my soul)
But i noe better it would do me no good to get into trouble myself
BUT mind, i might just do dat
Dun push me
I scream at u
d yrs u scream at me? EVERY DAY.
Why have such a wicked heart its all black
where u from
where would u go
No matter wat u get, how u win, one things sure
u will age n die
wat will become of u den
ash.
christian?
so tis is wat christians about?
Who is to tell me there is a GOD now
I believed when i was small, now it is just far.
If u push me n i should leave first,
dun forget i will for sure come bac to bring u to HELL to burn u FUCKIN witch.
Dun always say n tink u hav done alot for me
how can u even tink of dat , from where? im amazed
within all things u do, all d ONLY-GOOD to ur daughter, all d back stab d torture u inflict on us
u can still tink tis way. good for u
haha. how can i not laugh
anyways to suppress all d silent cries u made me choke on all dese yrs.
I have grown up
i can never win u, unless i do dat
but fuck on
when i walk out one fine day i carry no emotion for u.
Dats when i finally get out of tis SHIT.
All tink im emotional,
dey didn noe
When u finally make me feel gone, i am gone
i feel nothing.
You
perhaps u noe
perhaps u noe how black ur wife is
perhaps i understand ur stuck situation
but mayb i wished u ever did sth,said a small thing
From small to i grow up.
u nv did
mayb i already feel nth
Can u escape d reason for my wounds den
have it not been u i would hav left long ago
do u noe dat.
But for all of d torns in me u all caused
i feel nth more den a tinge of gratitude for u
dats all.
Someday, ill still lead my own life.
bcos i have no mother
u can do anything to me?
Fuckin take d name of my mother
but do nothing for me
Behind all of it,
r d things u reli DID
Why did another U leave us den
leavin us to be stabbed by others
U should have known
When u left
u left us dead.
There is no reason why i shouldn hate u too
u left.
do u noe all dese yrs wat i wen thru.do u noe.
You
you only wan ur name n ur face.
Reputation means all to u
dat humans dun.
Keep comin from ur mouth dat i shame u
dat everyones laughin n ridiculin me
Always sayin to disown
FUCKIN hell care bout my feelings?
U r old n i do HATE myself how come i still bother bout u sometimes when all against u
But its gettin bad now as i feel quite numb against u
For who i am, u condemn me
let me tell u sadly, it is me i chose
Tis is d courageous u tot coward.
N wateva u say i no longer care
now
if deres no ties, i dun care either
lol no difference to me ok
If i hadn had one other reason, den ill hav been gone.
Existance, ive long ceased to exist.
Wednesday, December 13, 2006 @Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Must say an unexpected date heh
Vivo grand opening
n my d fireworks was grand
It was better den nat day
Wat a beautiful sight
Feels a 'rainbow after d rain'
after d tough week
Heart's heavy
but did manage to achieve couple of smiles here n den
d only thing tat matters to me, be by my side.
Unexpected things always happen haha
Where did we end up at guess
Stephanie sun's outdoor concert at d roodtop terrace lol
N exclusive one only invited guests allowed
woo... :)
Nice one for d nite was chilly
makin d ambience reli nice
