Wednesday, November 29, 2006 @Wednesday, November 29, 2006
today
today so bitter
walk to serangoon
my legs felt they were breakin
but i wen on n on
i couldn stop
Tis world
does not belong
some day will take me away
i will leave
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember howI can't remember
whyI'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
I scream i try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
fade off
Silence
I feel disconnected
how could
and why
How could such things be said
how could thoughts
..especially from
you
My feelings have been in vain
My love been mocked
N me made a fool
Do anything
but dun misjudge tis feelings
these effort
everythin i put in
How can tis be
tell me
i am struck without a word
u make me bend my head n cry
u make me reduce to nothing
nothing
dat i hate me.
u make me feel stained
d time anticipated
w sweet thoughts as i wen
theyre gone
has been slapped
has been stabbed
i can from d bottom of me say i haven let u down
i couldn have **ved u more
or u didnn tink so
but u let me down
tis.
d good will i have in me
u flipped it
N i gave nothing more than my everything
It kills
everytime i rem how u tink
do u know how i reli feel
now
n all of u else
u all take me n step me
Yet i cant do anythin to fight bac
Family
never existed in my life
I wasnt supp to be here
it won hurt me to be gone
It won hurt
like how i hurt now.
I didn look up at the sky today to look at d stars
afraid ill get deceived once again by its beauty.
The lights all on
the skies r darker tis nite
As i drink my bottle..
at home
first tm
first tm i feel so bad
so bad
As i drink my bottle..
As i shut myself down.
I still ask myself, whyu.
I hope tis plays in tat moment
dat depart moment
dat last song i leave
for d song i feel
life.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 @Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Today i thought n thought.
Much of it scares
Alot
i feel my mind's snappin anytime
u see like d deep seas
sees d depth or at least tot it was
But deeper den dat, much
Beyond u can fathom
No one wans to listen though.
But one day they will
One day everyone will stop
n do
One day all will ask where n why
A grown up never says pain
So always trying to do tat
U gotta take it n put it all inside
Till d day u walk to where u last can hold
When choice comes to u
the most difficult n cold
u wished u didn hav to
But u no longer can move forth
Today i feel
I dun tink wat ppl feel
If ever dat choice is chosen
tink wat went thru d persons mind
dat one could mk such a painful decision
The sky falls on some
n nobody can understand ones inside
When u get sick of life
fading away
Today i thought how does it feel like to be a 'superman'
If not give me some chem to numb me.
Im really pain
Everything.
From the age of one.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Wednesday, November 01, 2006
3 hours of journey
It brought me to
nowhere
it kills me.
Walkin n reach d doorstep
turn to go
Many things of me died.
I my self sees d dummy
d one stepped n hurled
when d days were grey
All of it n all dats in me
feel for one
dat covers y im willing
Now i see where its taken me
seen as child
perhaps now should hit reality into me
presence not even exist in world
tis is wats after all of it
i cringed as i relate how deep i often dive
for ..
When surrounds too bothered
i understood n tried to please
but too beyond
totally went elsewhere
guess didn even realise
Would surely deny
But reli so affected all other things always go invisible
always didn see me.
Everytime. ?
Failed to see d fine line
Whenever im sick,
i only said i wished..
I was feelin reli bad
Dats y i reli wanted beside
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
