Sunday, August 13, 2006 @Sunday, August 13, 2006
July
Since comin back, life has been terrible.
Comin bac to d job
Overworked n quite ill 4 a period of time
Transfered, n nursing bac to health
But not smooth sailin still
One by one ppl go
effort seems to all go down d drain
Dere is no pt n even e one who persuaded n said all d wonders
I realised everyone had a backup plan
Feels like ive been cheated
Giving my all devoting my tm n now
i found myself stranded
w no backup plan
Deres no pt in stayin as days go by, as suffocations squeeze my neck
My passion is gone
By d shear disgust of d way things r done
And so i hav decided
i shall stay no more
i seek to find d blue sky
A place for myself,
somewhere.
So u can c, work sucks
other den tat...
Grandpa passed away.
Sights tat made one feel surreal
For a man of few words,
i realised quite a no of things after he passed on
It was hard to not drop a tear or two.
Altho i was guilty of feeling nothing( cold as i always am) at moments we spent at d wake
It came upon seein grandma cryin w pain
It made me think of how it is, d pain of losing someone u love
e one u knew e one u dated, shared a lifetime of memories
Wakin up tom mornin, he's no longer dere when u turn
U no longer can call him, talk to him,d presence is even gone.
Would u wish u had one more day
To say d things u wanted but never said
Life, nv d same again
I guess now i cannot find such courage yet
Nv would i guess
I hope hes in peace leaving on here.
