Saturday, July 30, 2005 @Saturday, July 30, 2005
Tot after a whole week of fever, sore throat,swollen eye, aches, vomit
i can stop takin medicine
But who knows gone is the western, but here comes the east.
bcos i still hav difficulties breathing..
I was brought to the chi doc.
I have no idea wats wrong either..
It wasn lk i had runnnin nose dats y cant breathe
Its jus d feelin of no air at all
I was practically surviving on vicks menthol n all otha strong oils
Chi doc..says..my lung is weak, n cold
dats y it cant function v well, hence nt producing enuff oxygen.
Dat explains y my hands n feet r always cold lk corpse
N also the frequent headaches.
Its quite bad news to me,
someone who sees sports as a can't-live-without.
She mix sth black for me
n came out with few things/food i shld avoid.
But still a small matter la won tk my life yet.
Wen Celia's 21st bday w joel n jasmine
how time flies
nex wld be joels turn
den mine
its no big deal lk how pple mk 21st bday a big hoo ha
wen u reach dere
sometimes u wished u cld go bac
to when u were few yrs bac
wen everything could be taken more at ease
wen life was more of a breeze
Anyways,
while waitin to cut cake..
we were plannin to catch fishes from d condo's pond haha
wif d paper cups.
Made a giant ice-cream too for my beloved hehe. :)
Wen wif dem to yishun
My goodness d journey..
by d end of it 3 of us were goin to puke le heh
But its all worthed it
when..d pink ger appeared. :)
We made it snow tonight.
*smile
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, July 23, 2005 @Saturday, July 23, 2005
I am freezin cold..
knees all jelly
feels lk my hands, legs, brain all disconnected
I feel so cold but inside i feel burnin sensation
:(
Everything feels floaty
my throat hurts terribly my head's so heavy.
Times when i am gonna collapse
Only ur presence can bring me the smile.
How ur acts melt my heart
I keep dem so closely to me.
Life treats no one fair tis i noe
n would u try to get past hiding
u noe it would be for life
or would u stand up, n face it bravely?
For me,
I am finally standin up
No more hiding no more lettin people manipulate me
no more thinking for everyone's feelings n do wrong to mine.
No more afraid to accept wat would come
No more be pulled by d nose
No more tryin to walk in shoes dat don fit
I noe i am not forcing dem to support me
i only wish for their slight understanding
I used to afraid of so many things
I used to be afraid of wat would they gif me
But, no longer.
Dere's only so much dey can decide for me
n im not afraid of it.
I am taking on the first gif in
dey can choose wat deems.
The most, i have is one life.
Take it if should,
nothing makes u a loser more den if u live for others.
I wan to be myself.
One life,
i don want to gif sth up, n go on my whole life searching for,
only to laern the something i was lookin for wif my whole heart..
is the one i gave up.
In life, it applies.
U gif sth up to suit everyone else to mk all happy
U thought at dat point of tm, which can be so easily mistaken,
dat it wouldn matter n tat everyone including urself would be happy over time.
Time past
It dawned on the senseless one that
nothing quite resulted from the decision
In fact nobody actually cared, it was merely only u thought it would make a better tom.
Everyone goes on, happy
everyone execpt u.
A long tm later
u realise only u beared the consuquence
The loss.
U go on ur whole life wishing to turn back time so badly
U noe wat is truly the things that matter in ur life
U would gif up everything, including tat past short insignificant moment of relieve to choose wat would reli have made u truly happy
But not many can.
At times i get crumped up lyin in my bedor walkin under d starsn i get overwhelmed by the surge of sadnessthey eat me up my insidesas i think again n rem d things then, great or smalli wrench my heart to think of d cruel choice madestill i wonder why den u decided tis waywhy u no longer thought wat were u thinkin i could never understand i could never believe i could never healhow could u do tatwas it the way u wanteddid u not think of wat u put me thrudo u really know how i feltdid u not think of when u leftu took everythin' out of me.....just don tinkI am glad to be taking the first step, for far too long i hav been living beneath a skin
Now for me, for my life.
My life has always been in d dumps,
But perhaps ure the gift that covers all.
Now i feel i have the best life nobody else have
Thank u for being there.
:)
Da mi.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, July 20, 2005 @Wednesday, July 20, 2005
We always meet wierd wierd things...
1st it was a lady askin us to scare away a cat from the lift landing bcos she was afraid..
Nex we had a lady requestin us to walk her to her block coz she tinks a pervert is following her..
den we found a pri sch boy under a playground
How exciting huh our dates haha
No tm to date even la.
D boy was lyin motionless scary la
den he sat up den he slept again
den afta awhile we decided to get him to wk up
we felt it was not safe 4 him to spend d nitedere, mite meet some baddie.
tried all language all ways to wk him up
he was motionless
was already lk a monkey jumpin all ova
finally i cracked a joke n i CAUGHT him gigglin.
boy we had to squeeze under d tunnel
sat dere n tok to him
he nv spoke a word
in btws he gav a nod or a shake of head
tis wen on for v v long
i tink he made 2 new friends man haha
3 of us were lk laughin at ok me n sayangs craziness
ok but he still refused to open his golden mouth
more counselin didn work, more naggin also.
he refused to go hm, n grabbed tight to his bag of 'run away survival kit' which i doubt can last him a day!
Finally, finally we felt no more option but to call d police
n left him to them.
I wonder how he is now..
hope he got home safely.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Friday, July 15, 2005 @Friday, July 15, 2005
At last got one week of hol.
Seems too short, for i am too tired
But nvm with d thurs n fri spent wif u,
i can say its well spent a hol already :)
Wen gotham penthouse
which was nt reli entertainin.
Can't believe how super we are
After a tiring round of clubbin,
we had a 2nd round of ktv.
Abt 3 plus am n 4 of us were cookin cup noodles den eatin by cineleisure steps heh
D poor ladies were kinda deprived of d mike
but nvm dey were lucky to be able to sit in d reknown concert haha
Songs are much well sung when u feel it.
Love songs become so easy to sing now, when i have u.
So on we go all d way to 6 am.
N dose lazy bum staffs got their well deserved punishment from all of us
haha i tink we'll be banned soon!
Fri wen sentosa
Errr...2 of us r d big tm slackers haha
So rem always set ur tm to meet us earlier
i tink hy n dax learnt tis alredi lol
A day at sentosa but without d sun
oh boy!
but look at d combination d 4 of us
man we create our own fun given any situation oh
D terribly long bus journey was already roarin w our laughter
Took many candid shots!
Finally reached harbourfront
but 1 wan go toilet 1 cant stop window shoppin haha
n we cldn even find d rite bus stop!
N we posed off as d hotel staff to tk d free shuttle bus in lol
no la half true coz i reli wen in to collect pay
Wasn't suprising dat when we reach sentosa, it was almost 5 alr! haha
Den it started to rain!
at 1st it was drenchin all our moods
but not for long
we begun to find joy in d rain
under a big umbrella tent
den lookin silly sharing a puny umbrella of dax
n in d end gave up n all walked in d rain
catchin a tram
but ended up cookin cup noodles once again
very 'in' thing now u noe haha
But tis tm was reli reli shiok
thai tom yam noodles when it was rainin heavily
wow.......shiok!
D 4 pieces of corn chips also yummy! *winks
After dat we hopped onto a mobile tram
we wen bac n forth many tms
even had brk tm wif d driver uncle
n we very 'gum' wif him! haha
finally ended bac at d beach
we wen into d water 4 awhile
den showered
wanted 2 cross d bridge but d entrance was flooded w mud water
Yes so dese monkeys climb on2 d bridge frm d sides
i tell u it was reli nt easy haha d ropes were too soft
but we made it!
we made it to d top!
N some ger bluffed me so happily in2 lookin in2 d binoculars dat dere was a beautiful scenary
*ah bish :P
we had a mini chat up dere at d highest level
Den makan out of sento.
Whatever comes, we will face it together.
And dere is nothing we cannot overcome.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, July 12, 2005 @Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Raining cats n dogs
Inside my heart actually i am touched
Sorry i didn express dat out
Today we r in d bickering mood once again
We shoot, we laugh
n i jus love d way my ger shakes her little pi gu
:p
We wen tp
wanted to watch our expired movies
but end up at d internet cafe
tryin to show her d gift
who knows d server got prob
at d end of many hrs
we still didn get to see!
But we ended up eatin durian by d streets haha
Me n my durian queen!
:)
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, July 11, 2005 @Monday, July 11, 2005
My heart fills with gladness
when u say u believe me.
Nothing else matters.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
