Monday, May 30, 2005 @Monday, May 30, 2005
Today its a sit-bus-till-butt-rot day..
Changed 2 buses to get to where d king is
My boss
He changed plan again n told me to go ok some place i dunno
When ask him he also dunno
huh?
Fine its d las tm he can tekan me i go
Worst thing is when i alight somewhere near, i forgot d name of d rd
N neither cld i find my tiny paper so cldn tk a cab
Dat boss tinks i am d richest n most free person ard.
By stroke of luck i saw d rd which was supposedly near to dat rd
So only choice was to walk
yes i walk under d bloody hot sun wo even havin a clue
Pple dat area had no idea too
Finally, finally i reached, n i was perspirin lk a tap.
Got it n left.
Changed 2 more buses
Each bus ride is 1 hr mind u
Luckily tis one had motivation. :)
we had mos burger
tis pair sure know how to entertain ourselves.
But we had pretty snaps too :)
Yes 2 buses all d way bac to sch..urgh
Jus for a stupid half n hr
n den back again to amk
U ask me am i blue in d face, yes i am heh
But finally it is done.
Internship.
Nobody do crazy things lk us!
we bought a whole box of ice-cream
n sat by d void deck to eat
dat was our dinner.ha
If u ask me to travel so much like d crazy poop i am today for anyone else
I'll jus BOX dat person man
But bcos its miss loo....................
Its ok its so ok.
haha ha
She is my medicine! :0
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, May 15, 2005 @Sunday, May 15, 2005
Words r the most lethal weapon in tis universe,
tis ugly n all so fake universe.
I dun fuckin care wat pple tink ok.
I am not going to be as fake as how U PEOPLE are
For ur info,
i gave up a long tm ago
putting up a act in front of others lk how all of u do.
Hyprocrites a whole bunch.
Gossipers, n may u be hit back twice as hard along ur road of life
so dat u may learn, so dat u feel how it is lk as well.
I won be d one to stab, for i won stoop so low
Wouldn be any different from u all den.
I tok about death
I even hold it close to me sometms
when i see tis world how dark it can be or mayb jus my world
I can only blame for my birth
Mayb i shouldn have even come to tis world
Could have saved me alot on my perspectives
I would nv have seen dark
i would nv have known d feelin of living n wishin i were dead.
Yes i am pessimistic
Hav it eva dawned upon all of u dat its bcos of U PEOPLE dat i am moulded to be tis way
how U PEOPLE hav broken me all inside
how U PEOPLE hav instilled all d hurt in me all d way
Like a volcano cap, abt to explode anytm
How long do u expect me to hold on more
How strong do u tink i am
How much do i mean to U ALL actually?
I neva once asked, nor ask u guys to ask urself..
when i was dwn did u all eva once were dere, u didn even noe
when i was goin to collapse, were u all eva dere to support me, never u all even pushed one more stab into me
Take it, my respect n love for u all still, or leave it.
As long as i tried.
But return me d respect i deserve, soon.
When its finally d tm
d tm when i will set off, to tk a life of my own
N live it my own.
The past of my life has been led by u guys, n u all led me thru all d pain
The future, its my life, i finally mk it mine.
It will be finally wat i wan.
I may respect , i may love u all still as my ...
but nothing will affect my decision
Nothing.
And i already know wat i wan..
I hope i live thru all tis shit,
u guys put me thru.
I noe as fast as i feel tis,
i wld get ova it as fast.
Used to it.
Deres nth i can do to change it
So i let it slip past me each tm..
I'll always be fine.
If i never found my
sunshine,
wat reason would i have in tis world to smile..
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 @Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Its a vicious world out there
Positive thoughts serve no use
When humans overturn d tables easy as abc.
I do my part
I dun mind any wateva work u, u for all d head counts not jus one mind u,
or however much u wan to gif me
i always wld accept readily.
But deres no right to judge.
I am a quiet worker i prefer nt to proclaim loud abt work ive done
N in my life ive nv seen a need to show when ive done much, or such.
I dun gush all d way 2 win pples awknowledgement
To me, it matters dat i mk sure my part is done.
In my life, many things i do is in d silence
But i do nt mind, i noe at least i can hold up my head, for i played my part.
U see with closed eyes
U dun even bother i guess
So y den make sweepin statements
To u dey r words merely
But dun u noe dey r wat tears me down
When im tryin so hard, dun assume i havent been.
The branch bent too hard will break.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
