Sunday, May 15, 2005 @Sunday, May 15, 2005
Words r the most lethal weapon in tis universe,
tis ugly n all so fake universe.
I dun fuckin care wat pple tink ok.
I am not going to be as fake as how U PEOPLE are
For ur info,
i gave up a long tm ago
putting up a act in front of others lk how all of u do.
Hyprocrites a whole bunch.
Gossipers, n may u be hit back twice as hard along ur road of life
so dat u may learn, so dat u feel how it is lk as well.
I won be d one to stab, for i won stoop so low
Wouldn be any different from u all den.
I tok about death
I even hold it close to me sometms
when i see tis world how dark it can be or mayb jus my world
I can only blame for my birth
Mayb i shouldn have even come to tis world
Could have saved me alot on my perspectives
I would nv have seen dark
i would nv have known d feelin of living n wishin i were dead.
Yes i am pessimistic
Hav it eva dawned upon all of u dat its bcos of U PEOPLE dat i am moulded to be tis way
how U PEOPLE hav broken me all inside
how U PEOPLE hav instilled all d hurt in me all d way
Like a volcano cap, abt to explode anytm
How long do u expect me to hold on more
How strong do u tink i am
How much do i mean to U ALL actually?
I neva once asked, nor ask u guys to ask urself..
when i was dwn did u all eva once were dere, u didn even noe
when i was goin to collapse, were u all eva dere to support me, never u all even pushed one more stab into me
Take it, my respect n love for u all still, or leave it.
As long as i tried.
But return me d respect i deserve, soon.
When its finally d tm
d tm when i will set off, to tk a life of my own
N live it my own.
The past of my life has been led by u guys, n u all led me thru all d pain
The future, its my life, i finally mk it mine.
It will be finally wat i wan.
I may respect , i may love u all still as my ...
but nothing will affect my decision
Nothing.
And i already know wat i wan..
I hope i live thru all tis shit,
u guys put me thru.
I noe as fast as i feel tis,
i wld get ova it as fast.
Used to it.
Deres nth i can do to change it
So i let it slip past me each tm..
I'll always be fine.
If i never found my
sunshine,
wat reason would i have in tis world to smile..
