Monday, September 27, 2004 @Monday, September 27, 2004
Someone stole my shoe from outside my corridor.
I am reli depressed.
How can pple be so "gian peng"???(so desperate n greedy)
May dat bastard his toes rot off.
I want to go get back d same pair.
Dere goes my plan to get another shoe.
bastard.
Must the rain pour so hard?
N at d same tm i walk out of home.
Drenched to d core
No tissue
Dripping all d way to macpherson.
I tink i am dwn in luck or sth tis days.
Mentioning abt it...i tink it all started fr dat nite...den d dream.
i still can rem d position dat i died.
Freak.
And when dat u have seen through,
u get it all at once.
N u c how at d beginning it was all jus being made used.
N i cant say how disappointed.
But its not one dat bothers me anymore.
*Little things work big wonders.
D sight dat wakes me up to a smile.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Saturday, September 25, 2004 @Saturday, September 25, 2004
Am i to fail dat proj?
Hai....wateva la....we'll see.
Mayb last min work will be the best creative juice squeeze.
Heh.
Took a brk frm dat horrendous stressful week.
Twn wif celia, joel, n jasmine.
makan, makan, n makan.
Like how many meals in a day la!
Did litt shopping..i so wan to shop one of dese days!!!!
Oh n i got a variety of comments for wearing pink! lol
Pool afta dat
I miss pool! haha
N it was a reli hilarous session too.
N joel!!!!!!!!!!!!
My tee size M let her pull n pull until now its XXL already!
Hmph!
N we were crazy today...
We wrestled n tugged...like we did in pri sch.
Haha....ok too old for dat le...but oh wells who care...i tink everyone should bring out d child inside dem once in a while! heh
N everyones always sayin im too serious..
Only those who know me well enuff noes when i go crazy i am reli crazy ha!
After dat was ramen
fwah d tomyam soup was shiok man! haha
Eat until so "shang gan"..
Sat bus home
D poor sick patient slept SO comfortably...haha
Den i wen off to meet Mrs Pig.
While hearin her pour out, we ate ice-cream
i get to eat my ice-cream in d end!!!! :p
Tot i would be hm early le..was in d cab
Den dey called..
So headed dwn
Den on my way fiona was tellin ghost stories to us on conference call w dax lisa n all
N bloody hell it was 2 am and i was all alone in d void deck
So scary can.
4 of us met n toked for awhile
Plan for dax bday celebration
Aiks d rest ill cut d story short haha.
Don tok bout enjoyment yet..
I still gotta pia for last 2 projs!
JIAYOU!
den hols!
den muz find job hurry!
den can enjoy!
yes...work hard den can enjoy!
:)
Life is changing....now dat 20 is approaching...haha
U won see it on d outside...im an inside person. :D
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, September 22, 2004 @Wednesday, September 22, 2004
I am SOOOOOOO tired.
Had only 2 hrs of slp
Tis past few days had been stayin up to do work
n today...
i had FIVE tests from 9 to 2?
Can faint.
Goodbye French!
D speakin test was d worst.
I jus get all shaky n my mind go blank
Back den in sec sch i hated oral exams.
I am jus not the speaking kind
I express with written words.
Je parle francai un peu
Mais je prefere anglais.
Je voudrais aller en vancance
Un aller simple billet d'avion pour moi
Je aller continuez jusqu' au bout
Je prends une chambre pour mille nuits.
La chambre est ca va mais le salle de bains grand.
Je n'aime pas lits je prends baignoire.
Je vais pour petit d'ejeuner avec dix mademoiselles.
Nous mangons des fraises a la piscine
Quand le soir viens, nous boire henekein en bouteille.
Comme ca?
Vous ne suis pas marie
Je sui celibataire
C'est d'accord.
Enchantee.
Fuck crap haha.
*Cannon ball -damien rice
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Friday, September 17, 2004 @Friday, September 17, 2004
I dun slp at nite.
I dun even slp in d morn or noon.
I say i gotta change tis but its always lk dat.
Damn.
Y do i always kena police copy id number...
Tis is fustrating
Even tho packagin dateline has been extended
Ive been doing n doin but d work nv seem to finish
N hence it will drag into my weekends
Which im supp to study my french which is lk DAMN alot
N studyin sth ive not touch or even read my work of cos it wld be SLOW.
So tis final papers wld be so screwed
So wats d use of gettin such high grades in my mids.
Sigh.
I cant wait for hols to be here
Away w all dese work man.
And tis is a earnest plead goin out to people out dere...
I need a model.
*sigh
D concept ive yet to come out wif.
oh god kill me.
When im supp to hand it in SOON.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Monday, September 06, 2004 @Monday, September 06, 2004
I am so sick of dese people.
How come in tis world dere are such people
who i dunno where deir brains are or how dey tink
dat dey actually go leave such comments for others..
I mean isn't it a clear fact that such acts r so mindless
Even if i leave my name as unknown or some other crap
Its an insult to my own individuality.
If ure shooting for a specific reason,
den say out d main point
rather den jus leave dese destructive meaningless comments.
Leaving pleasant or encouraging comments n not revealing ur name to gain credit
Makes u an honorable one.
Leaving mindless comments meant to bring someone dwn n not revealing ur name
Makes u an unworthy coward.
But be scared, very scared...
For not leaving ur name, doesn mean u are not known.
Its not like ive not given u allowance of limit
I guess tis is ur second "visit" rite?
Hoho n dun be amazed why i noe
Dun even ask how i noe
N dun bother trying to throw in words
when u are trying to shake me off...wat ur gender is or wateva shit
U should even be amazed dat i have an idea of who u are.
d very 1st tm i said, "be gone."
I said, "when i leave into my world, i leave u alone, so don cross into MINE."
Is MINE so difficult to understand?
I hate to shoot back, or even attempt to be hit back at u
But wat choice do u leave me
Maybe ur mum hadn had tm throughout ur life to teach u, now let me do u a favor.
You do not bite the hand which gave u food.
When someone gives u a chance,
Be grateful, or await d worse.
2nd lesson for u
Do not disrupt other's peace when dey have given u d grace
Think hard man.
Do not let wat i have done for u go to ash.
For mindless senseless fun,
Entertaining us wouldn' be a problem for me n my friends.
Fucker
If u are going to continue to disrupt the peace dat i love
I'll make sure b4 d end of tis festive
Before my mum goes
She will bring ur mum.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Sunday, September 05, 2004 @Sunday, September 05, 2004
Fri didn get to watch movie.
1st to twn to mt the joel couple.
den bus-ed back wif dem to yishun.
Met dax n coco.
Headed twn AGAIN w dax to mt d rest.
Long johns dinner, wait or isit supper le?
Wanted 2 chill at Indochine
But long queue threw us off dat idea.
So we walked, we walked, we walked...
Ktv too ex.
Someone suggested pool.
So we walked again..
Finally had a game or 2 of pool at Meridian.
Boy its been lk almos a yr since i play pool?
D las person i played pool wif i haven even seen for lk a yr!
I need to polish up.
Den we had supper at..i dunno wats dat called.
I had the wrong drink.
Ice coffee at 4am.
N hence when i got bac hm it was another sleepless nite staring at d ceiling!
Life is full of surprises huh!
cant believe nex day ill be headin for JB.
Ok i noe its not dat far from sg but at least its still out of sg
gifs me d "away from everything" feel.
I woke up at 11plus.
Den received msg frm co
Saying its been donkey yrs since she said she'll bring me to across.
Den ask if wanna go today
It was such a rush las min thing
but i needed a brk badly(b4 nex few weeks is d proj dateline clash)
She was on mc can...aiyo.
Jus b4 we can set off
I LOST MY WALLET...w EVERYTHING inside.
Ic, ezlink, hse card, atm n d rest of d cards
N d pics....(it wld all be erased den)
N cash(which left me wif a total asset of only 50cents in my jeans pocket)
So we travelled all d way to buona vista terminal where d bus terminates, to try our luck.
no luck, police report made.
But we still wen ahead w our trip nevertheless.
D whole day so much things happened man!
Dunno to laugh or to cry, haha.
I'll leave mos of d details out, else tis wld become an essay, if it isnt already one.
By d time we travelled bac n forth n d LONG jam,
when we stepped into JB customs,
we caught d sunset! ha!
terrible.
Asses were splitting...n we were hungry boars!
Ate at tis alley street place
good n unbelieving cheap.
She jus order n order n we ended up havin a hard tm finishin la haha
Wen to d bank 1st cos she has to bank in money(i jus typed monkey haha)
Den arrived at d shoppin complex.
Our food were not yet digested, yet she wen to buy dessert!!!
Fainted.
So we ate only d choc coatin of d ice-cream n threw d rest away.
Her theory? "D coating sg does not have, d ice-cream can get in sg so.."
Shop n shop.
She did a reli funny thing i wanted to jus faint on d spot.
we walked till d shoppin mall close.
Made a last stop at d convenience shop
The going back...pls.. the smuggling almos killed us.
mayb it was a saturday, dere were lk 10 police officers pouncing up n down at d check stop.
We got thru haha
Phew, else i wldn imagine wat trouble wif d lost of ic n all...ill jus get locked up man ha
met up w dax for a drink at one of d 24 hrs coffeeshop(yes age is catchin up w us)
Stayed till wee hrs i was so damn tired.
But whole nite cldn slp
Was tinkin wat kinda trouble i wld get into nex morn
when folks find out i lost my wallet
But dey didn noe i wen out of sg hehs
At bout ten am
"Ding dong"
I jumped out of bed.
A lady brought my wallet back!
AMen!
Still got my huge lashing , my allowance cut.
But im jus glad my wallet's back.
Do u noe dat saves me how much tm n money?
If i had to go to mk my ic n all...
Oh boy.
I treated her to a drink.
N tis is another monday.
N i dun feel lk goin sch again.
I hope at d end of d day i do at least some work.
I noe how minimal dat wld be haha
I gotta work harder for dese 2 weeks le..
Even more so bcoz thurs im goin zouk...esmund bday
Tired...off i go.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Thursday, September 02, 2004 @Thursday, September 02, 2004
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jie kou
Composer: Jay Chou (???) Lyricist: Jay Chou (???)
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fan zhe wo men de zhao pian
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xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
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qu nian de dong tian
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wo men xiao de hen tian
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kan zhe ni ku qi de lian
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dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
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lai bu ji ting jian
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ni yi zou de hen yuan
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ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo
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ye xu yi jing hen nan hui tou
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wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo
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qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
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jiu suan shi wo bu dong
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neng bu neng yuan liang wo
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qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
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wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou shi ni shou shang de jie kou
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qing ni hui tou
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wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
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jiu suan mei you jie guo
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wo ye neng gou cheng shou
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wo zhi dao ni de tong
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shi wo gei de cheng nuo
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ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong
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chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
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ru guo yao zou
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qing ni ji de wo
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ru guo nan guo
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qing ni wang liao wo
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Thursday, September 02, 2004
Judy bought me tis box of mnm choc
Dat comes wif a little teddy of a date.
Altho it costs merely a dollar, n d bear is a litt off for me,
I still appreciate d tot, dat she wen thru d trouble of standin dere to search for my birth date,fighting wif all d aunties ha!
I am touched.
See how easily contented i am! haha
For a day dat i didn go sch
I wasted my day.
All d work dat i told myself to do
i guess i only did 1/4 of it.
:(
Kill me.
N bcoz i took an half an hr nap,
I was wide awake at nite, cldn slp at all.
Lying on our beds, we started talking bout funerals n deaths.
ok, i noe, wat a mth to speak of dese topics ha.
Toked bout how wierd it felt to go to d funeral of someone u used noe, used to be with.
N i wld neva forget wat my grandma said when she walked to d front of my aunt's pic.
It was neva justified, for she commited suicide.
We even had to tell her dat she slipped and fell, had to hide d fact coz dey feared dat she cldn tk d blow.
But somehow, i feel that she noes.
I feel dat the most heartbroken one is my grandma.
Heaven haven' been fair to her.
Losing one daughter to accident, and two to suicides...
her heart muz have been shattered again n again.
Dats life.
I am one numb person.
Some parts where u wld expect me to feel, i cant.
But at d least expected, i feel.
But dere is two person, if one day comes d funeral, i would cry till i drop.
Reli.
N as much as i noe its out of reach,
I hope dat d day i never have to see.
Or perhaps den, d instinct i always have dat i will die early is a gd thing den if it comes true.
heh.
Nex we talked abt mum's death.
N den came d mystery dat cld nv be solved.
Because everyone refrains from tellin d truth, in front of both of us.
Is it our rights, or r dey rite in preventing us to be upset with wat might be.
But i never wanted to know anyways.
I say, she is already dead, let it pass.
I confessed to judy and i felt an ache in my heart,
D images are so faint
I cant rem her pressence
Her face in my mind, are made up of but wat i see from pictures.
N i dun wan dat to fade away..
Not even d small little details
Like how much she loved white.
How she would call us "Two little girls" when she comes hm every nite n open the door.
N when judy tells me d conversation btw dem jus d nite b4 she jumped.
Ok, tis is gettin out of place.
Im sorry hehs.
Tonite i shall go breathe air. :D
Im kinda excited..ha
Intense feelings
Have u eva felt it
Unable to feel it when it was dere
Den it came on
U feel it like it breathes in every vein dat runs in u
And when the only thing u wanted to do is to run to the arms
But u could only run away.
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
Wednesday, September 01, 2004 @Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Buddy!
When i mentioned old tm pals..i included u n jess inside!
Funny man u... haha
Tis week seems short.
Ha of cos when i only wen on mon n wed.
Today is self-proclaimed holiday again!
Dont even noe where to start..
Abstractions
Abstinents
Held back a step
Take a while to pause n look
I am a damned old machine
My engine jus wouldn' start
How den will i be able to get moving
From tis spot
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
@Wednesday, September 01, 2004
Opps.
Sorry for worries caused.
Mayb too boxed up,
too choked up wif so much work,
n all
So a little weak at defence at d moment
n subtle to get upset or distress
im fine dun worry
when u see me ill still be smiling...
So nice to see d concern
To feel d comfort
Only dese long tm pals can give.
:)
Even for the unknowns, girl and hugo boss, thanks.
Seek ahma!
I wanted to drop u comment many tms but i cldn!
yup i miss u man!
One fine day muz catch up! :)
On second tots, i won go bintan already
its gd i need d tm for my last rush for d assignments
brk it up for goin out on d weekends, 9th, n mayb 1 or 2 days into msia.
How time flies
Isn't it scary?
3 or 4 more weeks n ill be done ha!
I need to....work.
I need to....wat more of cos have a good brk!
This is bad...
I am distracted...
? and i stand in the
wonder of your love
