true love does not alter

Monday, August 02, 2004 @Monday, August 02, 2004

I am one to die.
After d 5 hrs of slp in 2 days..
Sunday nite i wen out of d hse, again.

Ktv wif d ex colleagues.

Den Landy Dax n me wen to kopitiam
Talks dat we made a pact to talk at d table n leave it dere when we leave.
N sorrows were poured out.

Left at 6 am
6 mind u.
shoot me.

More drinks more nuts
more years ive lost.

Muddled with sides
Makes me wonder if in d midst deres manipulations.
But would rather keep away.

Man should be born with 3 noses, no eyes.
Bcoz some sights kill.

Today i see black.

Skipped sch
Down all d places to get my materials,
a task should hav long been done.

It was war
I dun even noe whose fault
But i felt lk bursting.
I even wished i would.
Dats why deres no wish to stay hm one more sec.

Bad things come in mutiples..
And i struggled to think, was it real.
The words said dat i could never understand why.
And today i give up the two titles, names dat we had.

*Once again the memories came crashin back to me
sunk my heart once more

Its beyond control although i wished i could
i wished i never had to think of it never had to rem the pain again

To feel cold to be total lost
When nothing in tis world can comfort me
When nothing can make me feel any better

Why must misses find me
when i see u r total opposite
U are so happy
I see things and it kills
Why must i be the one dying in these memories that are long gone n lost

Why did u have to go then
and left me with all these pain
I hardly could go on..

But i am exhausted i am weary
I shouldnt live in the misery of u anymore
Shouldnt miss the you who broke every piece of me
I shouldnt be drownin my self in drinks in toxication anymore

U are never there
and will never be there

Goodbye to
The 4 yrs dat was shared
The frienship dat was drowned by unspeakable amounts of disappointment
The more dat was never expressed, could never express with words.
The bond dat was given d promise nothing could ever break it
The every memory dat have always been treasured

One of d worst days.

Fuck u, world.

? and i stand in the
wonder of your love