Saturday, July 31, 2004 @Saturday, July 31, 2004
I am a bad student.
Wat was supposed to be a stay-in weekend for purely work
Turned out to be an away from home weekend.
Such plans always fail.
Fail terribly.
Told myself fri would jus be a few hrs nite out jus to de-stress myself first.
But movie went into d wee hrs
N slpin at 5 am is a torture
For 7am was wake up tm for sch.
Sch was bloody dumb la.
Reli exhausted
N so sat was planned to be a stay-hm day
But ex colleague had to call on d dot
n with no "change of date" as an option,
i had to drag myself down.
Met celia for awhile
b4 mtg d fellow mates
It was quite some nite.
Except dat d beer n nuts kill.
And hy says i seem to be puttin on wt.
Honors given to all d drinkin n late nite supper man.
fuck, i want to CUT down man.
:/
D need to find focus in life again.
D need to get rid of the unfeeling feeling,
D simply drifting soul.
Dere was quite a solemn talk.
On life, on family, on friends..
Big things make small things smaller.
Dese tots have sunk in over tm
N hence d reason for d 6 nothingless mths dat has past.
D reason for y things dun bother me, simply pass me by
Friendship, held wif greater cherish.
Old friends dat words cant even amount d much i cherish,
even if i cant speak out verbally.
At many times tot of in my mind,
even if i am one bad at expressing.
Some i never wanted to be as it is now
But wif greater wish to so cherish it,
greater the fear of touchin it.
And den how do i express it.
Love..
Hmm nth to tok about as yet...
Family, gosh is tis a huge issue.
With updue respect, i base on 1 sentence "give and take"
But snappin comes wif overdue giving.
Anyways,
we ended up at hy's place.
Cozy tho it were simply mattresses.
Simplicity how i adore it.
5am in bed n 630 out of bed.
Accomapanied both for deir mtg.
Followed by mac brkfast(Diet plan not even workin la)
Followed by oily lunch
N so its back on a late sunday noon
Wif real swollen n black eyebags u wld scream if u see me.
Pimple outbreak focasted ahead.
Tons of undone work
tom shall set forth to d FARAWAY places
sigh.
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Standing at the road of junction with clueless directions.
