Sunday, April 18, 2004 @Sunday, April 18, 2004
How dissin'.
My hse water supply has been cut off
d concealed water pipes hav burst
So deres quite a flood
Irritating da hell out of me
U noe, when u need water n deres none.
Happen to catch a nkf real life case
whereby da lady n her children were so poor dey had to search d rubbish bin 4 food.
Such tough life
Or mayb d way she sacrifices and do so much 4 dem
Makes me...think...
Of a
wonderful lady.
Of how she used to do SO much for ...
Of how we were faced wif so many trials, obstacles,
of how we were filled wif worries..(ok i can be considered as a reli mature kid huh! haha)
Now things r betta, tho not perfect
But where we come from
i never did resent it
For it made me who i am
It made me do know how life can be reli tough
but oso how we gotta accept no matter how tough
it made me less taking, more giving
To help others, whenever i can
Perhaps sometms too much, i noe dey tk adv of me but whatever i can take ill jus take.
It made me cherish more of anythin
Pple have eva tell me u r so stupid to be doin so n so, or dey tink i am emotional
Dese r d ones who dun look deeper, or mayb dun understand me
Didn dey see d times when i feel nth?
In fact as of where i have walked thru, i feel nothingness more often den i feel.
its nt a matter of emotion, but how i cherish bcoz ive lost, literally lost b4.
Unfortunately as of now tis seems to hav drift further n further away from me...due to circumstances, n lost of ..some things... as well.
Or mayb dere will be a turn over, but i doubt so.
But my pt is...
Altho im broke, im gonna go brk my little piggy
Gather wat i have n im gonna bring da 2 out for lunch or sth...
Hmmms shes gettin old... it nv fails to tangle my hrt when i see her..
:(
She is one of da most important woman in my life.
Dats to wat i mean when i always say...bcoz of where ive come from...
Oh wells..
ive been thinkin alot huh!
N im writin alot more den i do.
One thing bout me..
Ive alwiz been a man of few words
Ok, in da sense of speakin...
I only get all i wanna say when i pen dem dwn..in tis case bloggin..
Wat i say often differ frm wat i reli wan to say.
Written forms hold so much more truths...(ok most of da tm unless deres a reason y i hav 2 say otherwise den wat i reli mean)
I nv could tell someone wat i reli feel...no matter how much she means to me
I jus can't, dunno, how to put dat across.
Ok, u can see i reli hav nth to at hm already...
U can see ive been thinking alot dese days...
Alot.
Ive alwiz been one who thinks alot
hahas dat explains y pple alwiz say i am in a daze.
Tis reminds me..of a ger who once told me..
"U noe...u alwiz seem like ure so far away, lk ure daydreamin 24/7...sa sa de look but dats wat i love abt u..."
buahaha ok dats nt d pt.
I do noe, thinkin alot can be bad too.
Time has made me sit back,
Tot and differentiated, the things i want to do, and d things i can't.
Hmm..
I also tot of the movie "Sth's gotta gif".
Its a great movie!
Many parts of it striked a deep impression on me when i watched it...3 or 4 weeks ago?
D part when d 2 were typin on msn.
He wanted to tell her "i miss u", like after finally.
But b4 he cld send it, she typed sth else which gave him d impression dat it wld not mean anythin to her even if he said "imu" and dat she prob wldn care a thing bout d whole thing..
Den came "i gtg" or sth from her ok she didn mean it tho...
But wif dat,
he deleted his words one by one.
N said bye too.
Isnt it so real, doesn dat happen b4?
The msg dat never was sent...
bcoz of sth dat sparked him to hold back.
I am cravin' for many kindas food!
lol.
Bad. very bad.
I tink one gets to noe more from wat i write den wait for me to tell dem my story personally.
heh.
Im still one who doesn speak much, of wat is reli dere.
Lucky d fact dat not many reads my blog
hurs.
Jay if u see tis....
I wanna go shoppin too!
hee tis comin weekend aights?
aight aight aight?
Haven see u for long man...
Be sure u come out den!
=)
